Black and White

Beginning of Term

2009-07-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

Start of new UniSIM Term

1) Financial Accounting
2) Management

Anyone has any help to offer? Appreciate it much.

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Unseen Forth-Coming

It's gonna be another major changes for me within my career path. I've been informed I will not be going back to the same ship or even squadron.

Chances are high that I may be moving to the newest, big ships - Stealth Frigates.

I'm not someone who can be prepared to adapt easily to anywhere. Especially when I have to organise my studies, work and I insist on having my own time when I am supposed to have it.

Working in Changi can be a life-turning, changing point. Probably any slacking of effort in going to school after work means my grades will dive. Working too hard may cause mental effects. I had rarely venture into such stages of compacted workloads before - only physically i suppose, but now I better not think much.

The deciding factor will be where am I going to.

I had to believe I'm always lucky? =D

Statistics grade

2009-06-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

Grade A!

Hmmm... good to go.

Probably because I've only 1 module.
Probably I've worked hard for it despite sailing and work.

Anyways I'm gonna let this energy keep going!

Happy birthday to Mum, Grandmother, Yixuan, Wendy and Hwee Sun! Stay healthy always.

CCC

2009-05-31T00:16:00.002+08:00

CCCC

My car will officially be rented out on 6th June for 2 years, next saturday. I am enduring the kind of reluctance when I'm removing the accessories that I've placed inside as companions and as mortuary objects if I'm even involved in a fatal accident.

Thinking about the possible benefits from relieving it from my monthly expenses and being inexperienced with this sort of transactions, whether it is a fraud or not I have that risk to take.

I think I had no one else to look for more appropriate advices on this.

Overall Rating: ☺☺☺

It all begins with an agreement to donate out his organs and so came about skynet's domination? Relationship between characters were built up so hastily that all it seems in those humans are merely angry and revengeful or anyhow. The submarine HQ can detect hostilities but did nothing for its defenses.

It made up to be an excellent action fiction movie but to me, It is only ok i think.

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Why is this the way it is

On the way back home from movie at the interchange, queuing up behind the feeder bus, I was watching the nearby queues boarding.

I noticed 1 bus driver, an auntie, was catching up with her smiling and greetings to the boarding passengers. She seemed like she didn't want to miss anyone.

The disturbing thing is, less than 4 passengers from that long, long queue, replied or smile back to that auntie except for one westerner who I can clearly see from afar that he return that attention to her with politeness.

At that moment I only wondered why most of those SG young or old, just gave that auntie a blank look and some just pass her without even looking at her for a sec. I thought if i were her and that almost 50 passengers, only 2 nodded in response and 2 return me with the greetings, it felt so ignored and unappreciated.

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The Boat
you lent me that boat when I needed it, all that generosity
and just when I thought for the first time I'm happy that I was sailing on calm sea
but it was eventually an opportunity, while i was out in the sea
You scolded me for taking the boat out, because when the sea is calm,
It will be my fault that you cannot be in it.

First Week

2009-05-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

POC First Week

Back to regimentation. Back to feeling like shit all over again. The marching, sweating and the various rules and regulations that is set by some guys I've yet to meet and I could never find the guts to even ask why, because that might just earn you extra 2 confinements because your question will never be valid in the first place.

I'm glad they catered useful lectures for us like:
Rules of the Road which comprises of the various rules and general guides to sea traffic and laws.
DISC personality test if you heard of it:

Dominance
Influence
Steadiness
Conscientiousness

this test is an officially proven effective and accuracy 99% personality test, which you need to pay to even take this test. You can access the information from here. From this test you can even roughly know the kind of girlfriend/boyfriend you should look for that is bound to be compatible with you in the long run.

Introducing My Cohort of 2SGs

We are assigned or forced to choose various appointments for ourselves.
I've comfortably chose to be a:

Heritage DY - To take photos/videos and make into a short clip of our activities throughout the course alongside with my Heritage I.C

House Duty Planner - To plan duties, enough said.

That's why I could upload these pictures of our first week activities!

These games are brand new to me, like outward bounds i suppose. Teamwork and coordination are the crucial points to attain victory over the other teams.
We've participated in:
Ensign design
Compose a War cry
IQ tests
"Using straws to cover an egg so it wouldn't break after dropping from level 2 ground."
Making an "A" raft to pull a casualty to another point.
The Web game (as shown above)
E.T.C

We have 3 teams, and after every game, winner will be able to choose 1 out of 3 materials for making a raft, and the remaining teams will then be given without a choice of the remaining 2 types of material.

The last event was a performance by the 3 teams and a Miss STC contest (STC because we are playing the games in a Sea Training Center)

Who says nightmares only comes out in bad dreams?

It was past 8pm by the time this event finish and we had to build our raft for the next morning's race.

It ended at about 10pm and we prepared our stuffs early the next morning for the race.

Our Gears and raft with the champion looks. haha

3 teams, from furthest raft to nearest raft:
Somalia, Dark Knights and Staunch.

And coincidentally, that's the final order of the race.

That's about all.

Temporary no sailing

2009-05-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

Farewell to Sovereignty

Maybe its temporarily, maybe its forever, whatever it is - I've left my ship after serving as a technician/engineer on board Sovereignty for the past 2 years.

To me, I may possibly be the luckiest one among my 7 fellow batchboys who went to this squadron together.

I had experienced the least sailing, but possibly done the most duties because the ships I went to, coincidentally reached their maintenance phases that total 10 months out of these 2 years.

Someone asked me how is it like to work in a naval ship. Do I like it there?

I would say that the deciding point can be who and what type of colleagues am I working with and the ever-changing policies, demands and there are confusing standards and methods that had never reached an agreement point. Sometimes its also about the high frequency of times out-at-sea.

And there is this 1 person that irritates the hell out of me almost all the time - enough to make me curse him in my mind whenever I see him. Why so serious?

1. Non-stop gibbering to broadcast his pessimism about the life in Navy and how different it is compared to the outside world.

2. Complained that he worked so hard but nobody appreciates him when he obviously did nothing significant. ( Ask someone from other departments to do his jobs while he took naps)

3. We were taking a break after a major repair on a machinery and he was sitting in the air-con room. He was angry and exclaimed that "You guys just want to watch me die of working loh!" while he attempts to remove a rubber tape that ties 2 ends of a knot together. Even my grandma could do that with ease. (Happens several times if he saw us resting and he is not)

4. Told me he was unhappy because nobody wished him good luck when he went for course or officially welcomed him back when his course finished, and I had received them.

I could go on and on about this guy, how we almost had a fight and that typical selfish kind of people who wants to harvest all the crops but does not sow the seeds at all, and go on to complain that the field is not well-fertilized.

Next week onwards, I'll be posted back to my training camp for the Petty Officer Course, the necessary step to go through before I can up-size my rank to 1st Sergeant. Have to stay-in for nearly 3 months.. F

On the other hand, Ah Bak you are right!

2009-05-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

Its hard to pretend
you love someone when you don't
but its harder to pretend
that you don't love someone
when you really do.

Nonsense

2009-05-03T19:48:00.003+08:00

Nonsense

Nonsense - Its a simple word, with a simple meaning that a particular thing, action, or whatever makes no sense.

You love your friends. But. Your mind is filled with negative assumptions of distrust, insecurity and the lack of confidence in the loyalty of this friendship.

There are people upset because you believe and listen to what your mind is telling yourself and not what they reasoned it to be, or even before they can even give a reason. A mind that is thinking this way is torturous to oneself.

Well. Have to be harsh here already. We do step in your shoes before
- by using soft words and ways not to make things too difficult and hurting u and this friendship even more.
- To just forget and forgive and let things go, because theoretically "accept people for who they are" exists.
- We know that you behaved this way because we are important to you. And we hoped that you will one day stop feeling that gap again because there are no outcasts among us even if we had some conflicts with each other.

What is the big deal if we had outings and you cannot attend? Or worst, not invited?
An sms or a call, "Hey! you guys went ahead without me! Remember to ask me next time!" sounds better than you soaking in your own grieve and think that all of us is against you, don't you think?

Hey dude, we are friends.

Not nannies.

April Movie Reviews

2009-04-17T19:12:00.003+08:00

April Movie Reviews

The Unborn

Horror: ☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺

An unborn child wants to be born now. The poster shows the ghostly child in the mirror - but that is not the main villain in the story.

I'll leave the details out. Let just say its more of a movie like "Possessed" . You'll see interesting "Silent Hill-like" creatures at the near-end part of the movie.

Wanted to grade the Horror with only ☺☺, but my junior colleague jumped a few times in the theatre - so had to believe more into its horror rating.

Knowing

Mystery: ☺☺
Action: ☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺
Overall: ☺☺

Disappointingly repetitive kind of plot. Aliens and aliens saved the planet Earth again and again. From "The Day The Earth Stood Still", "War of the Worlds" and now this "Knowing". Is it like a premonition of something that will be happening to Earth soon?

Well, at least we know that Solar Flare could destroy the Earth if the spill span is far enough to reach Earth.

but what is with the Alien's flashlight mouth and all the X-Men superhuman abilities yet again?

Fast and the Furious 4

Action: ☺☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺☺

Due to the economic recession, the cars have lesser stock, so there are lesser cars in this movie? It's okay. Taking your breath away at the start with very tense truck-robbing scene is a kicker. The storyline focused on the 2 characters very clearly - their purposes and their targets and you can see yourself following them through the show.

Lesser cars and no focus on car-babes in this F&F 4 but I feel that its still April's best catch.

Handsome Suit (Japanese)

Romance: ☺☺
Humor: ☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺

Personal opinion only. The ratings are not high due to the fact that the show is telling people to pay attention to someone's inner beauty and character instead of looks.

As such, supposed Japan is a leading country with people having a very keen sense for fashion and appearance, perhaps the show is reminding them what is the right thing to look for - for a partner or a friend.

So this movie may not be for foreign audiences.

But the guy is really not handsome enough to be convincing.

The Sniper

Action: ☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺

My rating is not based on Edison Chen's past nude photo scandals. He is one of the main character in the story, and the only one alive in the end. The story is based on the other 2 guys in the poster.

Vengeance and Karma kind of plot you could say. Watching this, felt some similarities to our working society.

Envy became jealousy.
Friends became Enemies.

And I love those sniper guns.

X Men Origins: Wolverine

Action: ☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺☺

The story took place 15 years before "X-Men" movie - before Wolverine's claws were made with indestructible steel, there were mere bones.

I have to say I have a tendency to be biased with X-Men series movies. The whole story is well-rounded and the characters are so well designed, along with Transformers, Spiderman, Batman, etc - As long as its not story copied from Japanese Animations, they make a freaking mess out of it.

This is about Wolverine and another claw-welding man, suspecting its Sabre-tooth but doubting it is. Cyclops is just a kid, Professor Xavier appears at the end, Gambit has a very minimum appearance in the movie and there aren't many mutants with unique powers in this film.

2009-04-05T12:30:00.009+08:00

Commando Orienteering

Haunting at Suntec's Carrefour.

We purposely meet at suntec carrefour to prepare relevant stuffs for our "Topography Course" on Friday late at night. (Prior to the picture above, the ghost had not slept well for the past 3 days due to work issues)

Cat wearing pampers!

The first interesting stuff I've seen that fateful morning, was a cat wearing pampers standing at a 2nd storey's window.

Some of the guys..

..with Lara Croft.

Moved off to the CCI (Cheers Connect I..something) through the Clementi Stadium and towards the side of the West Coast Stadium. Me, Clemen and Weixiang were split up into groups 1,2,3. Jeff and Yuhui were in the 4th group. We had our theory lessons.

All hell break loose from there onwards, well, specifically for me.

The fast march from West Coast to Bukit Timah Hill

Participants were screwed because they were told to assemble 5 mins downstairs after the CF (Course Facilitator) instructed them, but some of them were a minute late or so. "Guys! I am trying to be a GENTLEMAN here!"

I was like, wow, why so serious? Why are there no considerations for activities to lag behind time, which is normal, instead we got to go with the CF's timing because he wants it. Seems familiar to me, the regimentation that we had back in military. I wanted to start fuming, but I calm myself down and think it was probably he was from Commando and that he was brainwashed to talk and lead that way.

Upon reaching the starting point, I heard, "Who SAY you can wear EAR STUDS! Take it out before I DROP everyone!" and saw another trainer shouting at a participant.

Well, who said cannot? One of the participants were already drained upon reaching the hill with gastric pain or whatever. Like I will even DROP for him. Most of the time, who would expect to be punished after paying $20 for a course that haven't even started.

Walking through uneven terrains

Lost our way.

Bottomless,topless flight of steps.

It was hours of meaningless navigating through the woods with a map with resembles street directory. One or two of the checkpoints given to us were wrong, as in, the MGR given was wrong. I cannot see the purpose of this course from the exhaustive walking and climbing.

One guy was on the verge of collapsing

Jeff was carrying his bag, as well as yuhui's. They were both his team, and luckily my team is around with them. So, what would really happen if they fainted, suffering from heat exhaustion. There will be no ambulance that is capable of driving through the mazed-like tracks to search for casualties. Will Jeff and his remaining teammate capable of carrying them to wherever the ambulance will be - through the long flight of steps and hills. What if they stopped breathing. Conducting CPR without a cert is an offense because you might kill the person if you do it wrong, just to let you know.

I am asking about safety here. Exhausting everyone is a big problem.

"Wa lau.. we also travelled 3 times here before you all did!" Says the garang army officer to a 20 year old girl.

My thighs were cramping from the 4 hours of trekking slopes already, as everyone else, "Move faster! Encourage one another!" rang throughout the final rounds of upslopes and downslopes. I'd just felt like I've paid $20 for a BMT training all over again - on top of I-am-not-prepared-for-this.

My last picture.

I thought it would be a fun topo course which I can take pictures of the surroundings, atmosphere, plants, anything interesting and old. Walking with fume through the 7km meaningless, guided route by CF. I was wondering what objectives we achieved so far.

Jeff, "Chong, stop and stretch your legs abit."

I, saying loudly, "Cannot 1 leh, behind will ask you to move forward, push one another! My leg tear nevermind one."

Trainer, from behind, "Move faster, cover up!"

"You HEARD it?" to Jeff.

The very lousy safety measures, the lousy planned checkpoints, the military style applying in a civilian course, the wrong target audience, the injured participants, the unhappy CF who vent his anger on the participants by driving them recklessly from one place to another - after spending $45 on the course and preparation.

Dinner was around 8pm. 2 pieces of bread, plain water and a few sips of redbull was all that I had - Eating outside a cemetry, not a really bad setting I thought.

"Guys! Gather up!"

2 seconds later.

"HEY! Is this the FUCKING ATTITUDE you all give to your trainers! You want me to DROP you all a not!"

Walking through the cemetry was a rather enjoyable experience despite my painful legs. Although I'd find it disturbing when I had to walk through some overgrown grasses and bushes, just to realise I've stepped on some grave. The whole trip was guided too. Thankfully, cos we're at least being watched.

My team won and had collected all checkpoints. The guides told us that there will be reward if we win, so I chiong up with my crampy legs and say, "Rewards! Why not!" Thinking that there'll probably be cold drinks, or stuffs like that available if we reach, is really boosting my morale.

Upon reaching, there's nothing. One Ah Beng was mopping the cafeteria floor, the shop is closing. Nobody is there. So I had to guess the reward was - able to rest longer. Totally rubbish, so my legs cramped again.

Before a spot check on the equipments, most teams' maps were taken by trainers who sees them being placed on the floor or tables when they were resting and gone to the loos.

"KNOCK IT DOWN!"

I simply fuck-off myself back home.

Hey.

Even Lara Croft also cannot take it ok.

Losing Your Mind

2009-04-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

Story of the Question Mark Man

February

2009-03-22T17:01:00.002+08:00

The March through March

March, marks the end of my 1st Semester in uniSIM.

No more late night studying for now till the next semester starts - but, its the beginning of my nightmare to work on ship. Nevertheless, i can take it. I always hoped.

Will just go through what we've done since March with some pictures recap. Not professionally taken, but still, worth a view.

Mian's birthday at Science Center - Sakura

Visit to Marina Barrage

A poster in the Men's of O Bar

The good old days at Westmall Arcade

The search for nice food brought us to Sembawang

The steamboat gathering & celebration for March birthdayers:
Jeffrey, Yijia and Shiyun.

The after steamboat chill out at Essential Bar, Holland V

It's just yesterday and I'm rather keen to mention that the desserts served at this Essential Bar was especially good. The drinks are, sadly, below average although the fancy words on the menu said otherwise. It's a tea place, probably that's the reason for the dull tasting liquids they served - and waited rather long too.

But the desserts saved the day.

Movies

Dragonball

Action: ☺
Storyline: ☺
My rating: ☺

Its like squeezing juice out of a stone. The real dragonball's characters physique and appearances are - comic. This movie just make everything unacceptable. It's sort-of following the real comic story, yet, mixed a well large portion of weird and irrelevant additions, along with the no-effort design of character appearance, moves, and the story, it all turned into a big pile of junk film.

They're pushing it.

Streetfighter:Legend of Chun-Li

Action: ☺☺☺
Storyline: ☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺

One thing about Asian marvel heroes and like dragonball these sort of movie, their special 气功 will result in a high damage, "visible" energy source. Movies involving real characters made the energy sources looks too fake.

The fighting scene was good, but, legendary and vicious streetfighter villians got whacked so badly and quickly in the end - Just too fake.

And "too fake" will be the downfall of these movies - if there are more coming up.

Busy

2009-03-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

Been a long time since I've blogged.

My schedule is rather packed till I cannot differentiate weekdays and weekends anymore.

Everyday is predictably going in this order:

1 6.30am - Wake up

2 7.30am - Go work

3 8.30 to 9.00am - Breakfast

4 9.00am to 12.00pm - Work

5 12.00pm to 13.00pm - Lunch/Rest

6 13.00pm to 15.00pm - Work

7 15.00pm - Knock off if there's no duty

8 16.00pm to 18.00pm - Facebook /Gym /Go out

9 18.00pm - Dinner

10 18.00pm to 2.00am - Computer / Lesson / Project / Supper / Movie / etc

11 2.00am - Sleep

Basically this is almost what I'm doing everyday these 2 months. Lessons on thursdays and duties are average 2 times per week and had done at least 7 weekend duties since January.

Can't feel how special weekends are anymore.

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Movies

Pink Panther 2

Storyline: ☺☺☺
Humor: ☺☺☺☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺☺☺

Take a break, watch Pink Panther! Very few movies can get me laughing out loud really in the theatres these days. Romance Comedies' jokes are a total different genre compared to PP2.

But ultimately unsuitable for people who prefer brain cracking and emotionally-attached films.

Slumdog Millionaire

Storyline: ☺☺☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺☺

The plot is surprisingly direct - A poor indian participated in a "Who wants to be a Millionaire?" and won. Coincidences worked so well for him that it seems like he was born just for this purpose.

Very clever dialogues and settings that make people more aware of the poverty situation in India, or wherever the slums are.

However, Bollywood is in India. It's just like "Money No Enough" that has the setting and culture showed as what it is in Singapore. It's all about making use of resources, don't you think.

Suspect X

Storyline: ☺☺☺
Wits: ☺☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺☺

A Mathematician and a criminal, a researcher and a detective, a police and a reporter. The ending is so unexpected -

Unexpectedly easy but the film made it looks so hard.

He's Just Not That Into You

Storyline: ☺☺☺
Romance: ☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺☺

It's like a documentary film - Telling you the typical types of guys and the types of girls around. It makes you look deep within the characters' personalities unnoticedly. It's about the lives we had now, the kind of love we want to give and what we want to receive - eventually. Maybe?

Coming Soon

Horror: ☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺

I don't feel scared..

The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Storyline: ☺☺☺☺
My Rating: ☺☺☺☺

A man that was born physically old and died at old age as a baby. A very fresh storyline, touching and made you felt helpless and pity him for all the sacrifices he chose to make for the woman he loves. There are almost no emo-crying implicating scenes, yet, its sad enough.

You should have watched how Ah Gong cried for the whole 3 hours. Record-breaking.

身边 (Full Draft)

2009-01-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

身边 (Full Draft)

这夜景很美我看得很醉
红霞闪光灿烂比不上有你陪
你用心描绘身边和周围
就喜欢你总是忽略把我分配

海与天很自然在地平线登对
我却一直想懂牵你手的滋味
当卷浪依然不紊的后退
你仍旧是我肯弃森林的玫瑰

反映后的星空在月光下点缀
你淡红唇的嘴连打呵欠都美
才明白天使有些不一定会飞
不用太多复杂的思维

你头发的香味在每一阵风吹
你专注看着浪为着上岸准备
这样的情节哪怕会挽不回

我早已写成诗

关于你多珍贵

词：崇林

Chinatown

2009-01-24T20:04:00.002+08:00

Strolling Chinatown

Bak was walking enthusiastically at 20km/h.
I had a hard time catching up just to get this picture.

Admire her courage to pose like this at the train station.

This was the original picture I requested.
These scribbles are chinese words!

Probably more than 15 years ago that I've been to Chinatown before CNY. The crowds are still there, the air is still filled with the CNY atmosphere but the stalls, are hopeless - most of them.

Streets and streets of stuffs selling the same things

- Taiwan's Muah Chee and 果冻
- Stalls selling manufactured tarts, egg rolls, biscuits, e.t.c

There's more appeal and nicer things you can find in typical fun fairs and Pasar Malams. I had just a vivid memory of Chinatown long ago and I wasn't sure if it's like that when I was younger.

Maybe I'm not aware of the right things or having the right state of mind when I'm there.

The Chinatown I remember

Bought a boatswain pipe from an Indian Shop and got it for $10 ($16 before bargain) because of the fact that the pipe's material is rubbish. It comes in silver mostly, and cost about $20 - $30. It ain't easy to find this kind of sailor's pipe around, and some of my colleagues actually had to order from outside.

A good example of a working pipe.

What's different from the one I bought is that the gun's end and the hole is too far apart. I couldn't let it make a sound in the beginning, probably due to the rust inhibitor oil inside. Fish managed to blow it and sound came out eventually.

Not that I know very well but it's still kinda hard to convince people who insist they are right on things and usage that they don't know well. I threw it away after that, anyways, since to me it's not working. I can't blow that hard for 7 - 12 secs. Each mistake will end me up with 1 weekend confinement in my training course.

And it amazes me that Chinatown is selling losers' stuffs like that and with attempts to rack up the prices so much. One malay salesman was even trying to make me buy his magical cream product - It can make your scars and marks on your skin go away with a few rubs each day for a certain period of time!

It smells like indian perfume. It costs only $10 and with this product, there is no need for plastic surgery.

There are also some eye-openers despite all that..

佛牙寺

Keith corrected what I was trying to describe the place - Majestic. The interior is grand, huge and really well designed. There are statues of I think thousands of different buddha sitting on the walls and one hundred dragon carvings in the ceiling. It was amazing - I thought temples are supposed to be smokey with incenses and offerings, but it was air-conditioned and modern. The whole place is sure well-maintained and expensive!

??? Plant. I don't know what it is.

Chinese New Year, it's the plants that got my interest this year. There are so many varieties with different meanings - I missed them all. Their meanings, their names and their uses, I really need to learn to know these things, or I'll be one of the broken links from the older generations to the next ones.

Chinese New Year, I forget a lot of things already, and yet there are actually so many more things that I can learn about.

Probably there's more to Chinatown that we didn't managed to see that day.

For Money

2009-01-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

Which is you?

Not knowing the importance of money

Know too much the importance of money

Born rich and remain so

Waiting for people to give more money to you

Stop it

2009-01-15T14:23:00.002+08:00

Stop dwelling in your past achievements,

for they are nothing if you let them stay there.

Goodbye Pal

2009-01-13T19:42:00.002+08:00

You were the closest NSF buddy I had back when we were in training camp. I even call you Tweety because of your wider head ratio of your upper head.

I used to take your bike to home and to work - before I had a car. We're almost gone the 2 times where you almost skid when your chain suddenly drop loose on a bend, and the car that E-braked right in front of you.

I used to mock at your funny tattoo called “人心难测" and how it was so irrelevant to the Guan Yin that is standing on a dragon.

You missing front teeth that I always said its like a missing tile from your hand in a game of mahjong and called you "小相公" because of that.

And I remembered the heart to heart talks on how you should take it easier on whichever relationships that's gonna come to you, and my never-ever successful pursues. The 2.4km training runs where we talk and kick each other throughout the run and still achieve passing timing.

I visited you in hospital as soon as I could back from sailing when you flew meters away from your bike accident and saw the hole and the 20 plus stitches on your head. I'd told you I never want to eat the curry chicken available on your funeral.

I was almost in a state of shock and disbelief when a common friend of ours called me in the morning at 8a.m yesterday, the reception was weak at Tuas and I thought that guy was mumbling about someone owing him $50. And to receive a call about your death is utmost unacceptable for me at the moment -

That you jumped from your girlfriend's block 10th floor after a drinking session the previous night. This feeling is different from some friend's friend's cousin's brother death story I've heard due to whatever reason. You are a friend. I'd never expected you'd do such a thing..

Is it the alcohol effect that boost your courage and the quarrel with your girlfriend?
Are you depressed?

It's sad that you died a death not worthy..
It's sad that you were cremated without having a funeral.. because of chinese tradition I heard.

The most sad thing is our last conversation is not a happy one. I called you and screwed you for borrowing money from us to bars and pubs, when I've told you we only lend you for financial needs - and this conversation is half a year ago.

We shall be friends again if there's a next life. Rest in peace.

Red Cliff 2

2009-01-12T01:37:00.002+08:00

Story: ☺☺☺
Action: ☺☺☺☺☺
Humor: ☺☺☺
Strategy: ☺☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺☺

Part 2 of red cliff kicks off with a match of samba soccer. -_-

The best thing about this whole show is that - You will not get bored or feel draggy in the 2 hours sitting down there, but that again it varies from person to person.

If you had abit of revise on the history of the 3 kingdoms, this battle is a crippling 50 000 men to Cao Cao's 870 000 men! (Some historians believed the actual numbers are about 220 000 only. Did I said only?)

This film will give you the answer and the possible strategy and mind games the defendants used in a rather exxagerating fashion, but somehow the audiences enjoyed!

Moo Through 2009

2009-01-03T23:45:00.004+08:00

Bedtime Stories

Humor: ☺☺☺
Story: ☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺

Adam Sandler is one of my favorite actor - since "50 First Dates" and maybe earlier. The recent "Yes Man" and "Ip Man" seems to dilute the flavor of this film. Sadly, I walked out of the cinema feeling rather unsatisfied. The twist and fantasy context in the film is not rich enough. The humor is not as laughable as Yes Man.

It will still be worth watching though, since its still Adam Sandler.

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2009

身边

这夜景很美我看得很醉
红霞闪光灿烂比不上有你陪

你用心描绘身边和周围
就喜欢你总是忽略把我分配

海与天很自然在地平线登对

我却一直想懂

和你牵手的滋味

如果你觉得我有机会让你成为

我肯舍弃森林的玫瑰

- 崇林

Midnight 01/01/2009 - Prawning

$10 per prawn... Hmmm... pathetic.

Casual Poet

Casual Poet Entrance

Very.Hard.To.Find.Place

I could only smell the Thai Disco Cherry nearby. This Casual Poet place was well-hidden between 2 shops of steamboat on the 3rd floor... and the interior was....

..filled with random sketches..

...and more randomness...

Surprisingly nice chill out place.

Except for some of the dishes and drinks, taste rather bad.

They say this chicken mayo sandwich is alright. $6.90?

Saying

2008-12-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

世界上没有好人

只有不同程度的坏人

Trying to be the perfect man;

expect to do things the way you want to make it near perfection;

Trying to do all that good stuffs;

Just by reading it, doesn't seem that perfect already, does it.

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That idiot who said that I'm eating grass because I am struggling to own a car, just a gentle reminder that you'd be eating the grass that I spit out if it wasn't for your rich parents.

I strongly despise people who bad-mouth me in front of me just to get some conversation with a girl. It's not once already. You are just being idiotic.

Think about it.

Ip Man

2008-12-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Action: ☺☺☺☺☺
Adrenaline: ☺☺☺☺
Humor: ☺☺☺
Overall: ☺☺☺☺

"I.P Man" the first thought I saw the header.. Internet Protocol Man? Is it a chinese show about robots or some superhero type of movie? I suspect a lot of people would have these similar assumptions of this movie.

The story of the master of Bruce Lee - With totally no relation or appearance of Bruce Lee or any replacement whatsoever. It's just the pure story of Ip Man (Cantonese of 叶问) showing justice and loyalty through the form of chinese martial arts against the japanese soldiers in 佛山 during the Japanese occupation.

You'll love how the story tenses you up and feels that hatred and despise you would have just like the characters in the story. It's a must-watch show for all action movie lovers!

YESman!

2008-12-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

Genre: Romance Comedy
Humor: ☺☺☺☺
Story: ☺☺☺☺
Romance: ☺☺
Overall rating: ☺☺☺☺

I'm more than willing to pay more for the ticket for this movie. Apart from laughing the hell outta yourself in the theatre, it is also very much an inspirational film to a lot of people.

Saying yes to the things you've always wanted to do, but afraid to take the extra step forward and having to consider the consequences. We generate excuses, reasons, explanations, alternatives, buying our way out to face those things we originally wanted, always wanted.

Not much emphasis on the romance side, unfortunately, which can be good or bad.

EOY Chalet 2008!

2008-12-23T11:59:00.002+08:00

19th to 22nd December

With a record low of 12 people attending this year, and 1,2 of them being there for a record low of less than 20 minutes. Yet, the chalet was still fun, could I say.

The bungalow was huge and reasonably cheap - With 4 bedrooms, 8 beds and 3 toilets for usage. Each room, including the living room, were equipped with air conditioning and fan, a fairly decent kitchen to work our meals, a car shelter and a spacious living room - the biggest I've seen so far.

The surrounding is warm with serenity and peace. 2 playgrounds and a small field of grass stood out in front of the BBQ pit.

Bak feels lonelier than alone.

It was check-in day, most of the guys were occupied and could only come at night less me, chor, hy, ym and bak.

The first day, nothing much. Unpacking,mahjong, went downtown east for dinner and receiving the rest of the crew.

Nippley man and the chefs preparing fried rice.

Apparently our chalet's chef can't wake up in time to prepare his menu - Continental Breakfast. We settled with some lousy-brand bread and jam while waiting for lunch to be ready - Fried Rice and Corn & Potato Soup! It was nice. Then we had a game of soccer at the basketball court outside.

Setting traps

Sometimes, we ran out of stuffs to play, and disturbing people in the house was one of the ways to ease our boredom. My shaving foam was the weapon for setting traps around the bungalow. Under door knobs, on the bathroom floor, Toilet seat, Paper towels, bed sides, and on sleeping people. Jeffrey was the target for the picture above. He did not step on the foam, but he did not realize that his deodorant was foamed too...when he reached for it.

BBQ commencing

... frog.

Spacious and breezy BBQ area with the BBQ champions.

Every year, waiting to eat only..

Eat already watch tv.. and sit so far somemore..

While all is a bit burnt, it is still (y)!

The hotdogs, crab meats sucked. Along with the loaves of bread. Thanks to budgeting, these few items really taste worst than prison food (Although I've never tried before, but most likely).

汤圆妹!

The treasure hunt commenced at around 9 45pm after the briefing ended. With Sun as the only additional participating person after HS and Sun's bf left after the BBQ. How sad. Gledon on the other hand, strongly refused to join in through much persuasion.. And the last minute constraint of Vince and his friend, results in the removal of an entire team.. sank us real deep. The time to design, decorate and prepare the souvenirs. The disappointment is significantly large when the least we want for a cock-up, is due to human factor.

So we decided to vent off on bak..

..with 夺命剪刀脚 a.k.a DMJDJ - Courtesy of HY

3 hours of game, and we were all chatting random stuffs at the orientation plaza in Pasir Ris Park, so we decided to play wrestling - an excuse to interrogate bak about certain things - but in vain. He's persistent and deeply secretive. Too bad.

He was literally dead near the end of the game.

Some small minor flaws were observed in the game, but still we're happy the game is rather successful. Every team member had a souvenir of a wallet-sized card, and a polaroid photo of his/her team inside.

The forfeit for the losing team - Weixiang, Ah Gong and Sun, is a Wasabi sandwich.

Ingredients:

A tube of Wasabi Paste
Sliced Tomato
A piece of Ham

Sun, escaped by leaving the chalet early after the game, which is about 2a.m. The rest were to be consumed by wx and his mate.

"小意思!"

For England!

Eyes watery after eating that spicy stuff. Haha

Act smart bugger WX take in 1/4 of the sandwich in one mouthful. He was choking and coughing after the entire quarter sandwich was in his mouth. He ran to the kitchen, still coughing, while I was laughing mad. 1 went with him and saw him coughing and trying to puke out the sandwich while he seems like crying with his eyes watery due to the wasabi, and bending over at the kitchen sink. The ordeal in the kitchen ended and he was still coughing and rubbing his eyes after 10 minutes. That was damn funny! Too bad I had no videos, sometimes words can't describe everything, not from me at least. haha. Thumbs up for his courage.

Champions - Keith, Meilian & Chin How
1st Runner up - Yuhui, Jeffrey, Yong Meng & Chorlun
Worth Mentioning - Weixiang, Hui Fang & Hwee Sun
Removed team - Vincent, Jasmine & Chorlun(switched team)

After that....

OH~?

Some of them departed... and the chalet was rather empty.. so..

We then settled for some alcohol and games in the living room before bed.

Time check: 4:25a.m.

The next early noon when we got up..

Lunch is to be having Wanton Soup!

汤圆妹 Yuhui prepared some 汤圆 for this... erm...? 汤圆节? Happy family day? I love sesame and peanut 汤圆s... so... i should have wanted more. haha

The afternoon was spent preparing lunch.

Wanton Soup, 狮子头, Sardine in tomato sauce, rice.

Prepared by: Jeffrey, Yuhui and me.

Mian and Gong left before lunch..

Lunch was great as well. It's like the first time we had rather quality cooked meals in a chalet.

And...

OH..?

And that leads to...

DMJDJ!

Another friendly and bonded interrogation.

Dinner was a mission to clear out all remaining food we had left, with chicken as the major leftover. So I decided to fry it, and Keith was suggesting to make 咕噜肉 with french fries.

Curries, 咕噜肉, hotdogs & hams, 水晶包, campbell soup, veggie soup.

The fish, mutton curries and rendang in the Tupperware were brought by Vince from somewhere that has left-overs. This meal of left-overs is really a lot! We had our fill very soon, with some bottled drinks and chilled Milo.

Good times past really fast. It was already 4a.m when we were half-way through our RISK game. We called it a night... and that's

THE END.

Gotta Love Thai!

2008-12-18T22:42:00.003+08:00

Thai music are nice. If you haven't realised..

But, I haven't been to a Thai Disco..

to see the global-scaled legend about

Chai Lai Angels! ,

So many,

it would only be possible in a library of fairytales.

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Today's the beginning of my leave, and the usual annual chalet. Which could probably be the last. I have to take a rather reasonable time off to break.

Recently my temper has been hot, I could just confront anybody who has a problem with me. Even the usage of my working tools misplaced yet again could heat up my temper easily. Too busy with work, and some occasions due to having to carry chalet stuffs for that 800m to my car after work just made my mood even worst.

"What the hell am I the only one doing this." I couldn't just make do with a smile to myself and forget it.

But as the date draws near and work started showing progress, it's great to see teams working to make the chalet happens.

"Improvements are created by people who don't like the way things are presently."

I've quoted it on a reflection on my mood these days while going home, and find it rather true. Don't know is it a phrase used by some Timothy Shakespeare or whatsoever yet?

Dad's 53rd

2008-12-06T13:11:00.002+08:00

Dad's 53rd birthday last wednesday!

Dunno why, I always feel that despite the increasing numbers of candles each year.. he doesn't seem to be aging..

It is a good thing he shaved away that Hitler's moustache. Haha

UniSIM Acceptance!

2008-11-30T03:12:00.002+08:00

UniSIM - Surprise Is Maximum.

The redundant interview that asked me what am I going to do after achieving the bachelor cert, received some warm advices that I should planned what do I want to do with it.

"To use this relevant cert to get a relevant job." seems too shallow an answer for him. Less convincing. Very much showed that I weren't enthusiastic enough to be worth the chance to hold that bachelor cert at the end. That guy said that I should have a better goal, a target to boost my morale to study.

Interviews frustrate me. Personally. Give me a job and the work to do. I don't see interviews very necessary, unless you are going to Mediacorp:

fake that smile, fake that enthusiasm and fake that every description of yourself and how good you really is. I never even think that the interviewer will believe in whatever you said you are going to do for the company is true. So why all the acts.

The interview concludes that the January intake for my course is most probably full and there's a very high probability that I'll be in the July Intake.

However, the envelope states otherwise. It's January 2009!

To Be Understanding?

2008-11-28T00:24:00.004+08:00

1. It is something you expect others to have when they are upset with you but you need not take into account why they are.

2. When they are happily enjoying their days fully doing the things that benefits them, and you deal with the things that don't benefits them all these whiles, you should understand that you are being helpful and kind.

But we understand that "Understanding" is a positive term for one's character.

Sucky feeling to make someone feel bad, but just had to do it, don't know why. Being frank?

Partially is cos I can't deal with off days staying at home. Need something to get my attention out of this boredom.

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Had been dismantling my PC these few days..

Shall learn how to fix up a PC's motherboard - And I can DIY my own computer specs in no time!!!!

Words With Rhythms

2008-11-22T16:08:00.002+08:00

You may know it, you may not.

You might have heard it, you might not.

It's updated now.

I am still just an amateur common man trying to write something,

and friends who keeps trying,

http://words-with-rhythms.blogspot.com/

Every piece is just an attempt.. may be good or bad,

but it's still nice to have a song of your own?

Any friends who compose and want to find someone who writes "ok ok" lyrics, can contact me. no problem! (y)

Sucker

2008-11-16T19:07:00.001+08:00

突然好想你

2008-11-13T19:04:00.003+08:00

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美那麽相信
那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经

为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你

却又突然

听到你的消息

最怕听到你的消息.

Nin Nabei

2008-11-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

On a breezey morning, I'll wake up 10 minutes later cos I don't have to walk that extra 200m and 3,4 storey flight of steps.

I've always grumble about the fact that the parking capacity at my house here is rather tight. Arriving home later than 9pm means I'll have to park 3 stories up in the multi-storey carpark. And normal supper and night outings means heading towards the top floor of the car park - A freaking 6-storey height.

But

Parking at HDB open car park is far from comfort. One would definitely be glad to earn the nearest parking slot closest to the lift and void deck area after a hectic day's work, but now it had turned into a gamble.

Suddenly, this monday i woke up to realise that my car's been intentionally scratched, or not. It came as a package of "Scratch 1 get 1 free" on the left and right side of my poor car. Now, I'll have to get this paint touch-up and that'll cost me quite a few bucks.

Nevertheless, whatever reasons one has to vandalise another's property, I would never fully understand the ultimate purpose. Jealousy? Just For Fun? Revenge? If I can own a car, I'll fucking have the money to get it fixed. Don't you get it?

One fine day I'll catch you and throw some fucking honey BBQ pork buns at your face. Don't worry, just the way you'll love it to be - it's free.

You're welcomed.

2 Meters Of Scrolling

2008-11-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

Previous Bintan Trip

Monkey Island

Sea View from Resort Lobby

Sea View from swimming pool (Note the lizard?)

That small bugger reptile jumped into the pool after this shot was taken, one female Westerner actually jumped out of the water with.......... her bra dropped off.

Yes, i did see something.. and wished I had not.

Nobody's even at the beach at all.

Coconut tree that learnt Yoga.

Very nice greenie view.

First time lying on it.

The resort's ultimate lunch buffet with vast horrific spawning of desserts!

My very favorite picture!

It was ***ing raining all the time.

The shuttle bus ride at night. Eerie and have a very keen feeling to see something supernatural in these roads.

Travelling is not easy around these Bintan Resorts. Every destination at least requires a shuttle bus to reach.

It cost $6 for a to and fro trip.

Waiting is a major turn-off for the shuttle buses too.

Last stop.

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Recently

Really had a big urge to play sports actually..

To play Volleyball at Sentosa

Bowling, Pool, Swim,

To play badminton in the Community Centers

To throw through some hoops

To increase my frequency to go to the gym when I'm free and less tired.

Sailed 5 days continously at the start of the month. Fatigue actually sets in due to irregular sleeping time. Heavy workload and paperwork this month.

Waiting and waiting for my UniSIM application approval.

Needing a way to move me out from the seat in front of my computer sometimes. It is always Computer - Out of House. It's either the computer, or I had to go out. I need to push myself more! Damn.

Just less than 5 weeks to chalet!

Sunset Grill & Henderson Waves

2008-10-26T19:57:00.002+08:00

Located in the vast wilderness from the main roads and deep within some forsaken kidnapping hot spots that were probably filming places in various local TV Drama series. This Sunset Grill & Pub was probably the hardest to-reach dining spot I've ever been to (Although I had never been finding a lot of hidden dining places to begin with).
The fact that Sir Bak and his Car crew got lost and Mr "GPS" Vincent couldn't navigate his way - are solid evidences - it was a labrinyth. Mr Bak didn't even trust me that I've reached the spot until we alight from my car, it was a location nobody believed a Bar would have existed.

Level 1 Spicy Buffalo Wings

Taste: ☺☺

Surprising - Not nice. It is spicy, yes, the first bite made me down one glass of water. Vince actually almost finished a FLASK of water upon finishing his 1 and a 1/2 wings.

The taste is sour, and the spicyness is like a mild version of the japanese wasabi. It tastes more pepperish rather than the hotness of chilli. Nothing really seems specially good, despite the hoo-haa over the advertisements spread by visited customers.

Furthermore, 12 wings cost $28. W.T.F.

Fried Button Mushrooms, $13 - $17 I think

Taste: ☺☺☺

Oily, all agreed, as the pressure of the fork going into the mushroom easily juiced out the oily gravy soaked within. Crispy and chewy, you can guess from the fried outer layer and the very normal chewy button mushroom. Dull taste, except for the fragrance of the flour they use to fry it.

Roughly $1 a piece of fried button mushroom. W.T.F.

Funnily, YM look rather Monkeyish in this pix.

The best part of this place was probably the setting and ambience. You can actually see private planes and jets moving across the road just beside the bar. Another is probably the cosy feeling you would have because the location is far less associated with the common urbanised area of a city. The firefly lightings that decorates the place when sun falls is also rather warming and romantical.

Ants and mosquitoes are a definite nuisance under your dining table though.

We spent near $64 for 4 dishes. The 2 above and 2 more plates of french fries at $4 each. Probably a decent place to chill when you are a bit loaded or to fascinate your girlfriend.

Overall: ☺☺☺

Henderson Waves

After another round of dim sum at 小旋风 at Tiong Bahru Plaza, we went to the Henderson Waves. The very long stretch of bridge from Mt. Faber to somewhere that I don't know.

Missing 6?

Hmm... Nice place maybe? Our fun was short-lived, thanks to a security guard holding a camera and trying to take pictures of the cars illegally parked at the roadside. Happens to be us.

Convinced

2008-10-25T00:18:00.004+08:00

I am convinced -

People who can get things that they want simply by verbal requests and a little more effort of the hands and legs without the means of going through any real pain, and

acquired the service,

the objective,

the material,

or any other good favored bonuses, they just

Forgets to appreciate.

Turns into expectations - "You've did this once and you SHOULD do it again"

Any forms of protest and complaints will end up being sentenced to be imprisoned in their hearts, and

"Petty"

will just be the minimal charge.

"I anything one."

Recent Productions

2008-10-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

1st: 20th Century Boys

Overall: ☺

Kenji Kun.... A So Bi Ma Shou.....
2 words to describe this film - Sucks bad.

☺ for the effort to put such a lousy film into a trilogy.

2nd: Painted Skin

Overall: ☺☺

What's the point of an action movie when the most powerful villian doesn't fight, and keeps crying? The worst part is that the villian sacrificed herself to save the man and the man's love! Oh my goodness! Don't it just sucked when there are actually no villians in an Action movie?

☺ for Donnie Yen.

3rd: Eagle Eye

Overall: ☺☺

A superb fusion of iRobot and Die Hard 4.0. The ending is just too predictable and the Eagle Eye is too capable to a point that the things it can do is unbelievable+.

4th: Max Payne

Overall: ☺☺

Was wondering how one girl was torn into pieces when the demons and angels are supposed to be illusions. The enemies are damn cock-eyes who can aim at 15m distance and yet missed the target completely with the bullets' points of contact 15m to the left or right of the target.

The game is better.

☺ for being one of my favorite shooting game.

5th: Butterfly Lovers

Overall: ☺☺☺

☺☺ for Charlene! She is the sole reason why I would even want to watch this film. There is no solid sword fights. Just pure Ah Sa cuteness!

☺for Harlem! He contributes rather a lot to the humor factor.

Actually all the swordsmen in this show looks noob less 王大哥. It is just plain comedy.

Ear Spa

2008-10-21T23:29:00.003+08:00

Lubricate your ears on Tuesday nights @ Holland V's Wala Wala!

Happy Hour Band: Hush.

David, Kewei, Clarence

Steel Tabula rocked the night from 9pm.

Ginger 'n' Chips!

I was wondering why my fish and chips looks like this... but it tastes great anyways. Loved their Calamari, Mushroom-creamed Dory Fish, Chicken Wings and their Pizzas, they should be on your table partnering your drink. And indulged yourself in the soothing and happening genre of good music and songs.

说好的。幸福呢

2008-10-04T17:25:00.005+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我像起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

继续莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了爱情面临选择

你冷了却了我哭了

一开始的不快乐
你用卡片纸写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
。
。
。
要怎么停呢

Portray

2008-09-27T22:00:00.003+08:00

Portrait of Chong Lin, 1958

Make yourself look like somebody else at Yearbookyourself.com!

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Love, then hate, or the other way round?

Do you know you started to hate first, or you started knowing how to love first?

It is a revolving question to me, and I don't really know how to answer that. Though at first thought, i chose - hate first.

To me, maybe it's all just about the lack of in-depth understanding of many things I find unnecessary, irritating, annoying, etc in the beginning stage of that thing I dislike;

Just 3 examples of things i used to hate.

Wearing a pair of wet shoes on a rainy day
That obvious fake smile he/she is giving you
Someone don't bothered to reply your sms

Imagine working on an unsettling ground (rocking ship) and facing rather strong sea rains/storms. Everywhere on you is soaked, and you have to make that job delivered.
You dislike him, he dislike you. You both are smiling and waving at each other and saying "See you soon!" How funny is that picture?
Your sms was sent to a phantom.

I think that all that I feel or think, is part of my character, the way I look at things and made a judgement I deem appropriate. Unless I'm more understanding, it's impossible to control unless I force myself to do so, in a straightforward sentence - I am lying to myself.

Talking is easier, just like blogging. I can show others otherwise by portraying myself the way I want or hope others to feel about me, by writing and words. Just ask yourself,

Do you do that?
Are you sure?

Feel all that hate you want. But learn to forgive at the end of that. Do a reflection on yourself, once a while, unless you are those class of people who always thinks that you are the most logical, knowledgeable, smart, understanding, mature or one of the most perfect person. You will realise that

You are no different in behaving the way you don't like others to.

The Unit

2008-09-17T00:59:00.002+08:00

Overall Rating: ☺☺☺☺

The Unit is a covert Special Forces team that does not exist. Their cover is the 303rd logistical studies group. They are assigned covert military operations given directly by the President and never get credit for their actions.

Their wives are also a tight group protecting their husbands. They protect their husband’s secrets and maintain their cover.

Apart from Prison Break and Lost, this action drama series is by far the best that I've came across and which I really get hooked up chasing it when one of my chiefs brought the VCDs onboard ship. I believe it's showing season 3 on TV now. And i've barely managed to finish Season 2 through my last sailing only. Missed the Season 1, shall watch it next time =/

The unit consists of more than just professional soldiers dedicating their lives to their country and their wives who are really powerful, their dialogues are great and well-versed, watching every part of the episodes will just make you sit on the edge of your seats. You'll feel like you're really determined to be a garang soldier just by watching it,

Seriously.

2008-09-11T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hello Kitty & Miscellenous @ Chinese Garden

Girls
Price: lllll
Lanterns: lllll
Decorations: lllll
Camera Whoring: lllll

Guys
Price: lllll
Lanterns: lllll
Decorations: lllll
Camera Whoring: You kidding me?

Well well well, this autumn fest used to be my favorite occasion, with the candles, fires and the beautiful lights created by the lanterns everywhere. What's left of this feeling for autumn festival is recuperated merely by watching kids enjoying themselves and the colourfulness of the lighted lanterns.

And for some of the past years, as people were strolling with lanterns, we were making some people's life miserably drenched with water. Those were the days of the water-bomb games held in multi storey carparks on Autumn Fest. The good-old sec school days.

This year's festival theme in Chinese Garden, was disappointingly girlish for guys in my own opinion, and strikingly attractive for kawaii kitty-loving fans, especially girls i think.

The secondary theme was the events happening recently, like the F1 race, the Olympics and perhaps some others which I'm not really sure of. The huge lanterns also seems to be mass-manufactured as well, with the similar sizes and looking at quantities of them don't give me that kind of "Wow" feeling I should have for a good $12 (Off peak, weekdays).

Even a cake shop has more varieties.

Maybe it's most ideal for couples and families.

These pictures were taken with WX's camera.

Hello Kitty High Voltage Theme Park.

Assortments of some which I dunno.

The Pink Dolphin Energy Drink?

F1 Theme behind.

Bearded old moons. Reminds me of abalone..

Qian's baby, Weiwei. I kick him.... (Camera's angle effect only)

.....then he emo.......

continue emo... confirm can act.

When you grew up, you know things, and you know it's not really true or scary

*Snap snap*

...What's that?

HAHA

You might have noticed the camera owner is not in the pictures.

"Eh, you take camera out you don't want take pictures of yourself meh?"

"Don't want lah, for what?"

Winner.

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Babylon A.D

Overall: lllll

It's neither of everything. Neither too clear. Neither too action-packed. Neither too futuristic. Neither too detailed. Neither too understood.

Neither do I know why I am watching it.

Do you know how an A.I (Artificial Intelligent) human can predict the future? Do you know that A.I human can become pregnant even if she's a virgin?

If you don't know, I will only say that Babylon A.D wouldn't give you the answer either. It's only a show, so it'll only show you.

沿海公路的出口

2008-09-07T19:29:00.002+08:00

用一个火柴稍一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
慌茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

倘若说放一次手就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷解脱

我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
留不住回忆却学不会放手

怎么走

The BBQ To-Know List

2008-09-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

• Keep food from sticking by rubbing grill with vegetable oil or non-stick cookingspray.
• Leaving space around each food item on the grill allows for even cooking and smoke penetration.
• Turn meat just once on the grill – for steaks, turn them when the juices start to bubble on the uncooked side (the clearer the juice, the more well done the meat).
• Use tongs or a spatula to turn food. Poultry and meat can lose moisture and flavorful juices when pierced by a fork.
• Apply sauces containing honey, brown sugar or molasses during the last 10 minutes to prevent the sauce from burning.
• Keep a spray bottle filled with water handy so you can spritz flare-ups, which can blacken your food.
• Place cooked foods on a clean plate, not one that has previously held raw meat, fish or poultry. Bacteria from raw food can contaminate the cooked food and cause food poisoning.
• Brush the grilling surface (once it's cooled) with a wired brush to remove any stuck on food.

Man, the steak looks 120% temptation island. Seems like we never did have some nice juicy steaks for our chalets, less the ones organised by my ship mates.

And oh ya, eating burnt BBQ food will not cause cancer, it only looks less appetising. Unless you eat them every meal everyday for at least 1 week - and it MIGHT create enough toxic in your body to form cancerous cells. So, please, if your food is a little bit burnt, eat it and don't waste.

Smokers who refuse eating burnt food "because they cause cancer", talk to my leg.

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The iPhone Girl!

From the forums, it seems that this girl was just the subject for an iPhone camera test. And it was accidentally not deleted. Seems to me that the girl could still keep her job despite all the Hoo-Haa all over the planet over her appearing in an iPhone.

Maybe the next time you buy a handphone, ask for one with a cute girl in it!

The Active Lifestyle

2008-08-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

Bowling, running, badminton, gym regime - Living the active lifestyle.

But,
bowling used to be $1.70 a game or less;
badminton court booking used to be cheaper than $6 per hour;

Gym seems to remain the same despite these all-out inflation crisis.
But all was for the fun of it. To play together as a group, talk about nothing, or from nothingness we created something to talk about.

I seemed to have no qualms about spending money this way. And as long as my friends don't worry too.

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In some years, we will be known as "The Older Generation". That will be the time when we will be thrown questions, instead of giving. We will be answering, instead of seeking. We will be demostrating, instead of watching.

I don't want my life to be revolving in a circle - like my job already has. I had to be upset about being at the bottom to keep myself from moving up constantly. I always have to think I'm not better than others, so I can improve even more when I reach the top.

Life has no second chance. Don't stay shallow.

2008-08-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

Some people are out there nicely laid out to help his friends, fortunate people have friends that are there to help them

and

some are just making friends so they can help themselves.

If I'm only worth to be your friend in one manner,

or feel u have to smile in front of me but hated my guts,

or just someone around to fulfill your desires,

or thinks that I'm hard to please.

Please, tell me straight now. So, I can be more sincere or return this fake and intentional friendship back to you.

Starring - June

2008-08-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

June Lee M.L's gift was this mini video clip -> download link

Was rather disappointed I couldn't attend the 6pm dinner and made everyone stayed at coffee bean for me when I barely reached at 10pm with sonic speed. Luckily I supposed all end up at the correct location with minimal confusion?

Was rather disappointed again when the "6" was missing on the cake despite me emailing back them to amend the wordings. The cake was too chewy and the chocolate lack a surprise factor. Next time, gonna try Little Foot's.

And have to thank everyone for making the video possible, especially Juan,

who did nearly all of the animation and effects and meeting up with me for nearly a week. And Xuan, who sacrificed her precious sleep to stay till after midnight at some days to do portions of the vid, despite having to work.

And conform must thank the director de leh.

Behind The Scenes

I remembered some portions of the pictures gallery in the video is quite unsightly at first. Like the wordings for June's 19th Birthday.. it was

"When you still have no armpit hair.." but changed to "When you're 19... blah blah" and xuan keep asking me to say the EH HEH so much so that it comes out whenever I appear in the video.. -_-

and the XJC part was supposed to retake because I keep taking xuan's marshmellow stick and swing... and notice our eyes were always focusing on our left, that's because the dialogues were typed in my com.

It was a very interesting experience using Adobe Premiere and being part of a "filming crew".

3607

2008-08-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

This sucks.

For the past 22 years, my license plate numbers came out only 9 times. And none is top 3.

Combat Arms & Training Arms

2008-08-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

Combat Arms Online

Game Genre: First Person Shooter
Playing Style: Counter Strike + Battlefield 2
Link: Combat Arms

Thought I should actually blog about this, which very much associates to what we have been doing at home whenever we are bored and aimless.

Have been really sick of the monotonous leveling of those usual MMORPG games. This is a game of skill, luck and opportunity. It wouldn't make you feel addicted that easily, less you are psychopathic and feels like killing people at every moment.

This, is a game I'll probably be staying longer as long as my friends are playing.

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ATOS Gym @ Chevrons

Took my chance to try out the Gym at Chevrons yesterday noon with Chor. For a moment, I was almost cursing at the price of the $2.00 car park fee and the $3.00 for signing into the Gym.

The very next moment, I thought, I walked into heaven. I had none of an idea how heaven looks like, but if it has to be like ATOS gym, I would gladly step in it.

For $3.00 (Chevrons Member) and $5.00 (Non-member), the moment you signed in, you are issued with a private locker key, and a clean, warm towel. 2 rather cute girls were on the cycling machine. 3 TVs were showing 3 different channels at different angles, 2 magazine racks were ideally placed at 2 corners of the equipment room for easy access.

And the toilet, was the reason I think that ATOS gym turned heavenly - Placed right at the opposite end from the entrance, was a 5-men sized jacuzzi topped with heated water, at comfort level. At the extreme end of the room, was a steam-bath room for 2 pax.

There weren't many people there that day. 5 Hulks were hulking with the dumbbells at a seperate room, that left 2 cute girls cycling in the equipment room where we begin and end our work-out session. The tread mills weren't working that day, for upgrading, that's the only disappointing part we had there.

The bath in the hot jacuzzi after the work-out is definitely an experience I will want to have again. $3.00 to heaven. Anyone?

Comfort: lllll
Equipments: lllll
Equipments Condition: lllll
Service: lllll

Post 1 Get 1 Free

2008-07-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

The Mummy 3: Return Of the Dragon Emperor

Overall: lllll

Visual effects are good. Just look at how the Mummy Emperor turns into a 3-headed dragon, some enlarged lion-beast creature, spitting fire and controlling all kinds of elements etc. It's all weird to me, unfortunately. There is no details that goes about the emperor being able to transform.

And to us who've know a bit on the Chinese history, it's really hard to put fiction together with the history which we were taught or known.

Hollywood likes to produce movies with association to Asians nowadays, and almost every film have a relation to the mythical creature - dragon. And characters suddenly can speak English everytime. It turns boring.

The change of the female lead character to someone unfamiliar is also another turn-off point.

Well, in my opinion, I didn't like the show one bit.

Medic Certificate

I couldn't believe I've attended 3 medic courses the past 4 days, and got 4 certificates for the 4 courses.

Heartsaver Course - It comprises of mainly the informations and steps to carry out the CPR (Cardio Pulmonary Resuscitation - If you didn't know what CPR is)

FAP Course - First Aid Party. The basics we need to know to dress different kinds of wounds, cuts, burns, fractures and know the name, type and severity of each kind of injury.

AED Course - AED means Automatic External Defibrillator. This is a kind of portable device we are taught to use "Shock" to reset a patient's pulse rhythm back to normal if the patient has a VF(ventricular fribrillation) which refers to, abnormal pulse frequency. This is mostly done along with CPR. It's rather demoralising to know that survival rate drops by 10% every minute this process is delayed when there's VF or the heart stops beating.

AFAP Course - Advanced First Aid Party. To pass this test, we need to do injection LIVE! That means we are paired up to poke the hell out of each other and inject a tube into the victim's veins for IV Drips. This is the most exciting course of all. haha.

But wtf am I doing there.. I am a Technician.

他

2008-07-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

想出去兜风还是
只是不知所措
挡风镜前都只有
一些破相镜头

他一路的走反正
视围只是经过
还有时间埋怨说
路边的灯太多

静静的路上音机很熟悉的广播
听见有人这么说他说他的双手
只能紧紧地握着方向盘和天空
为什么就不曾有更幸福的理由

Yet Another Charity Scam

2008-07-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

It's on Yahoo! main page. Your goodwill and generosity aids had been made use of again. With the fuel price hikes, ERPs and the recent income tax mail you received, you just NEED to be angry.

And they openly show you how they gonna scam you by doing stunts and all that on TV. I pity those who participated and all their tears.

Why do they start and want to help any organisations in donations when they don't have people monitoring these organisations' behaviour?

Head of Ren Ci Hospital, the Venerable Shi Ming Yi has been charged with alleged forgery, conspiracy and misuse of funds.

Venerable Ming Yi, who was also former Ren Ci Chairman, was slapped with 10 charges Tuesday morning.

The monk faces four charges under the Penal Code involving two counts of alleged criminal breach of trust.

He also faces one count of alleged forgery for the purpose of cheating and one count of abetment for allegedly falsifying accounts.

He also faces six charges under the Charities Act for allegedly providing false information.

Two of his associates Raymong Yeung and Phua Seow Hua were also alleged to have gone into conspiracy with the Venerable and were also charged in court Tuesday.

Separately, a volunteer from Ren Ci was charged with allegedly possessing some 70 copies of obscene film.

Venerable Ming Yi, also known as Goh Kah Heng, is out on S$200, 000 bail.

The case will be heard in court on August 4.

Venerable Ming Yi has been on leave for five months before his arrest on Monday night.

He had been under probe by the Commercial Affairs Department.

The Commercial Affairs Department was called in after auditors engaged by the Health Ministry highlighted possible irregularities in some of the charity’s financial transactions.

The Ministry of Health had said that several transactions, which involved several million dollars, could not be satisfactorily explained.

Ren Ci and 11 other large Institutions of a Public Character were subject to the Health Ministry’s general review in July 2006.

Ren Ci is believed to be the third largest health charity in Singapore after the National Kidney Foundation and SingHealth Endowment Fund.

The Commissioner of Charities has suspended Venerable Ming Yi from his office as Chief Executive Officer of Ren Ci Hospital & Medicare Centre with immediate effect.

He will also be suspended from his executive positions in five other charities: Foo Hai Ch’an Monastery, Foo Hai Ch’an Buddhist Cultural and Welfare Association, Singapore Buddhist Free Clinic and The Singapore Regional Centre of the World Fellowship of Buddhists, and the
Katho Temple.

He remains the religious leader of the Foo Hai Ch’an Monastery.

Month Of June

2008-07-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

Can I say that this was the month most packed with activities since the beginning of 2008?

19th June

Grandma's birthday.
Didn't get to attend due to sailing.

22nd June

A belated and the FIRST birthday activity I've attended so far this year, and it's for Xuan. Could say that, "I'm glad we've made it - successfully."

Despite the fact that it was the school childrens' holiday season and previous choices of playing laser tags, Wii and finally, paintball - It was all dang fully booked. Laser quest was finally decided as a no-go because the emails that were replied to me had sentences like "Your kid's", "children", "balloons", "decorate the place suitable for kids" and to the fact that I've already stated in the mail, it's for my friend's 23rd birthday.

Red Dynasty service is totally ~~screwed~~ fuck-up for such a popular and owns the biggest paintball arena in Singapore, they only accept email bookings - And yet, they don't reply emails. Chorlun's friend was kind enough to help, as his friend works in RD.

"He say mention his name can get a VIP response." Says Chorlun. Yet, proved that RD was more screwed-up than recognising its employee. I've sent 3 emails.

On the other hand, Orchid Country Club was far more responsive, not only they suggest a slot available for us when others are fully booked, they reserve for us too. And they actually called up and confirm with me the information that I've sent.

The ride which made the day possible.
And the fortunates who don't have to take MRT there.

Tightfit + Short sleeves = Painball Hero

Team with most wins - Due largely to Clemen and Hy's expressions

Alas! One good day.

28th June

Mom's birthday.

My family and my dad's new shave. Hitler become Stalin - I've always tell him

They say I look more like my mom.

Helclaw and tigerworm are now allies. Thumbs up for that!

Havoc! If you look carefully.. her friends are trying to feed her milk from a baby's bottle..

Her Karaokae friends and her botak teacher who had someone to donate $1000 to sichuan earthquake if he shaved his head - 高飞

And all that havoc happens in Pariss Marina. And my goodness, they are so loud.

Taste: lllll (their pastries are good.)
Variety: lllll (extra point for having chocolate fondue and seafood.)
Overall: lllll

Everything wasn't that bad, but for someone who don't like crabs, prawns and lobsters, Villagê or Sakura is a better choice for me. Pariss is ok I supposed, but to me, they have quite a lot of dishes, especially the fried stuffs that I consider - too cheap for their entrance fee.

眼泪笑了

2008-06-25T13:42:00.000+08:00

比想象中更痛
你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走
都积在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢
再勇敢地站着找回光和热
面对你的时候我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客
因为路有些曲折是美的

心碎成了沙漠
就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手
本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的就唱首离歌
想起你的时候我不是卑微的
然而我没有遗憾

因为我已爱过你

深深的

Our Msn Language

2008-06-22T13:31:00.001+08:00

BOF Events Board

2008-06-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Our [BO*YFS] Event Blog is created and operational! Smartly contributed by our Lee Hao Yong.

Simply go to www.our-board.blogspot.com/ to see our group's upcoming events!
All blogger friends who wished to participate or get updated from our groups' events are encouraged to visit that site and write under 'comments', or simply give us an sms or a call.

The section under my blog's "Links" has been updated, the link for the event blog is available. Hope this new idea could be fully utilized to faciliate communications when going for outings. (nowadays everything expensive. Rice, Petrol, ERP, Taxes etc)

Anyone who wish to get admin rights when you had organised something and wish to blog it, please contact haoyong.

Major events like Chalet, Overseas trip, BBQs etc, you can kindly request for people who have SAFRA card, 11B or anything to do with priveledges on the blog. Hope this blog will grow to be more active and expand the limitations on activities in our groups of friends...

Incredible Hulk Spoiler

2008-06-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

Story: lllll
Action: lllll
Overall: lllll

This movie can be blasted down further into 2 segments. One, will be the usual scenes we always see in Marvel produced movies these days - The authorities, military and government going after our heroes until they realised those guys are on the good side, and some still don't realise it at all. Recall it - Batman, Spiderman, Ironman, X-Men etc.

And this Incredible Hulk has emphasized an incredible amount of time spent on a General and his Don't-Stop-Till-He-Drop Army chasing down the Hulk almost ~~100%~~ 80% of the movie time. The annoying thing is that they keep on using rifles to shoot him even though they know it's not going to hurt him.

The 2nd segment is like an introduction to Hulk's console game moves, only guys who ever played the console games will understand. 2 favorite moves of the Hulk were delivered on fighting the Abomination - Hulk Smash and the "Ultimate Buddha Clap". And a clap that was enough to put out the flames of a helicopter that's on fire...

some things I don't understand fully..

At the beginning. Bruce (The Hulk) was called "Ben" by the General. And later on he was then known as Bruce. I didn't catch that part totally as to why he was called Ben. But Bruce eventually recognised himself as Hulk when he shouted "Hulk....SMASH!" before delivering that particular move -.-?

But being a fiction movie.. I just can't be thinking the logical way or find an explanation, could I? I'm looking forward to watching its next movie though. Stark from "Ironman" actually made a special appearance at the end proposing to the General to merge forces with him.

Steamed

2008-06-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Everytime I felt I had to post a pix in my blog only made me remembered that i forgot to get my camera repaired.

I want to take pix of things.
Not professionally,
not intentionally,
just to take pix when I want to.

2 of my ship friends ORD this coming week, and one of them has his birthday on his ORD date! So, had to use magic to create money from my already 'pua-kang' pockets to fish out enough for a casual dinner down at Yuki Yaki Marina. (Spent nearly $3000 so far since 10th May)

We talked about those usual stuffs like the future plans, studies, work, people, gossips, complaints, etc.

"Hopefully can find a girlfriend who can understand me well." says A.

Me, "You ownself must let yourself be understood ma. Everytime you blackface ask you, you'll say nothing or shake head. Other than knowing you can sing well and you love ktv, like nothing much liao. I know you for more than 1 year and that's all I know about you."

We went on, asking about what are their criteria they look for, for a good girlfriend.

It's almost predictable what they'll say. The usual 'Preferably attractive' and comparability to certain celebrities with regards to their characters and looks. I'm rather surprised 'Can cook and do laundry' is none of their seeking criteria.

But when it comes to "What do you think girls look for, for a good boyfriend." Conflicts! One feels that most girls go for rich and handsome guys. One thinks that having a stable income, a good education cert, provides a certain sense of security, is important.

I was taught that when making a goal, target, or expectations, must be rationally achieveable. Reaching to reach someone's expectation on the appearance and financial level is not something to achieve easily even if you work hard.

I told them, my temper is sometimes not good. I sort of know myself. I can get sarcastic when I feel that people ask me things that I think it's not worth a question at all. That's why, if any girl can tolerate my temper, a bit smarty and pleasant looking can liao. And provided I like her. The rest depends on how she want me to love her, and how I am receiving. Most importantly, the chemistry must be there. Good looks, figure, finance status, are all bonuses.

My temper. Steamed.
It seems I'm starting to look for reasons to do favor for people. Although I may still do it nevertheless, but, giving, doing, giving, doing, I still don't feel like I'm getting anything back, at all.

Oh well, I'll find means to be better. Next time.

Yoo Ye Eun

2008-05-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

Yoo Ye Eun

I almost immediately want to come home to watch this amazing vid when i read this article about the 5 yr old girl who is blind, and can play the piano after listening to the tune - just once..

It's moving.

It's A Shrooms Thing!

2008-05-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

Was craving for this little snack in TCC's menu for 2 days!

The Coffee Connoisseur - Has a really healthy varieties of good, quality food! The only flaw is that I still have not much confidence in pronouning the last word 'Connoisseur'.

This Shrooms Bite here.. heavenly emits a strong mushroom fragrance as you knife into its crispy crust.. reveals the very hot, mushroom gravy soup.. yes, its gravy soup.
The sweet aroma will just engulf your every chew, as your tongue pushed the food to the back of your throat.. pampering your taste buds..

The best thing is, it's vegetarian.

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And just to let this post looks longer,

Thank you 66 meiling! For informing about the Unisim's subsidy programme for working uncles!

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And lastly, a personal note:

I know that modifying my ride, spending money on it, is wrong. If ever there are people who shake their heads in their mind about what I'm doing.

I know what I am doing, actually.

I just want my car to be better, in performance or appearance. I want it the way I want it while I still can. Simply because its my car. I'm the owner.

I've saved like freaky $750+ in addition to my savings plan of $600 per month for the past 2 months for my then-called "Education Fees" and I decided to let it go due to very reasonable reasons. So I had this amount extra to "neutralise"!

I used to say. "I wouldn't be so silly, to waste money on such things. Car only mah, can drive can liao wad!"

But Ownership - is such a dominating thing, in everyone's mind. Why everyone? Take aside my car and talk about stuffs that doesn't cost so much, but is related to ownership:

1. Gamers - You simply cannot resist spending money for your characters' training.
2. Cosmetics - You want your hair, skin, nails, eyes, to look good. So you look good too.

And all these spenditures are just temporary.

I thought I was so wrong to give my car these exp. modifications, until Jeff actually didn't disapprove of my love for my car. hahaha. He didn't ask the usual "For what?" and "Why?".

He's thinking of painting his Vespa too. And just bought 2 new helmets for himself.

Ownership of something, is a terrible addiction.

幸福的风

2008-05-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

因為我永远只能一个人生活
孤单的快乐哀愁偶尔可以偽装瀟洒
只有心里慌乱起来自己喝酒

因為你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同
谁知道你不走
拥抱著我说终于找到了我

你看穿我的轮廓
亲吻我的奋勇不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔
还以為真爱只是一个传说

请相信我的承诺虽然有点笨拙
但我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走

因為你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同
谁知道你不走
拥抱著我说终于找到了我

It's Rioly Worth it.

2008-05-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

I find Rio's interior lightings more sporty than most vehicles.
At least it isn't too dark when night cruising.

My darling car is already 7 months old since 1st Oct'07.

It's been with me to the further distance,
every lost of way,
every near accidents,
every servicings,
every stink-mouth people who say bad things about it and praise BMWs, Porsche, ferraris when they can hardly afford it in their lifetimes;

and

everytime i complain about it's fuel consumption.

So, last week, I approached my limits, lay down my shield and my life-bounded Visa flashes across my eyes and i, stayed humble in front of the Slashing machine, prayed hard it'll not deduct too much...

but it still did.

Installed in my vehicle, that's not original, up to this point:

1. 16-Blue Led Interior Lights - $24
2. Carbon Charger - $190
3. Fuel Magnets x 3 - $160 ( Dunno got wad use actually, the effects is not proven but heck anyways)
4. Cold Air Intake - $90
5. Power Pass - $150

Upgrading soon...

1. Platinum Spark Plugs x 4 - $??
2. Blue Light Scuff Plates - $88

All the installed components actually improved my fuel consumption.

24.86L could travel 314.85km compare to last time when it's 25L to 220km approx, making it's mileage improved 29% better then before. Changing the new spark plugs hopefully would make it even better, if my research and information is not wrong.. hopefully with this installations, it'll turn over to be a worthy upgrade in the long run.

Scuff plates is just for appearance. Hopefully it'll look more classy with that!

The Retreating Symptoms

2008-05-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

It's about the TVU.

Recent research on this TVU..

World Ranking: 2942
Cost Fee: $19000

It's main glorious achievements were all about music... and successful musicians who used to study in that University.
And a decade back, it was on the verge of closing down due to insufficient funding..?

I'm beginning to doubt the guy who's giving me information and recommendation on the Universities I should take. If any SIM or people taking part time Degree courses is reading this. Can look out for me for better, higher ranked Unis? Now I m thinking of trying SIM and other alternatives.

And just a tips, don't ask about recognition like, "is this university recognised?" This question is only personal opinions. That is, it depends on whether your employer thinks it's recognised, or whether you think it's recognised. Views can be different. You know? There are still people who don't even know Singapore exists. So, we might not know some ulu universities that are damn popular overseas but we don't know of too.

My cheque bounced back for the initial payment for the course. It ain't a bad bounce. If it had gone right through the hoop, so may my future. Nice rebound.

What was I thinking?
I seriously need to stop my rush on time and further plan my money's worthiness. I am so sure of getting a better grade University with that amount of money.

on another hand...

It's been so long.. it's still so cute...haha

But kinda bored on the clickings. But the Wheels of Fortunes are still much fun and disappointment.

Choice

2008-04-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

They say misery is optional.

I agree.

You can be happier about everything if you always take someone facing even worse challenges.

It's like "Oh, some of the people in Africa don't even have things to eat. Yet I can still afford to pay for a cheap $1.80 nasi lemak meal. I should be contented."

"So what I only scored 48/100 for my maths! Fuck! That guy's only got 12!!!!!!!"

I'm getting paid 1 share of salary for the load of 2,3 men's jobs. It's not like I'm feeling overloaded. It's just plain boring to be working alone when there are actually more manpower to help.

What can I say to them? SAF Doesn't Pay You To Exist?

I can't! Because in fact it does!

I think a lot of times my mood and thinking depends on the people around me, though I tried hard not to turn to the bad side.

Am I just not lucky enough to work happily with just a bit of satisfaction?

Pennilessly Me.

2008-04-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

This gotta be the root of the utmost financial downturn of my entire life. I'm finally, and so completely, broke.

After almost a year of no-public transportations entering my life, i stepped on the train on the 14th this month. The fading feeling of the familiar crowds surged in suddenly, yet, i thought it was rather sweet, like the instant aroma of a perfume spray. I guess travelling to town area the coming months, will remain this way.

Calculating the expenses of a trip by car to Cineleisure:

Petrol - Approx. $2 for every 10km journey. It's almost 43km.

$2 x 4 = $8

The journey back? $8 x 2 = $16

Parking, say, cheapest is Plaza Singapore, or Wheelock Place - $2.14

ERP Gantries? Unavoidable at least 2 Gantries - $0.50 x 2 = $1.

So, with the cheapest + off peak price. It's $16 + $1 + $2.14 = $19.14.

Any journey took during peak hours or other parking lots, sometimes detours to drop off or fetch pple, your trip could've been more than $30 easily. The ERPs are just like paying summon for going town too.

And all THESE is that freaking Honours Course I'm gonna take in the upcoming month.. BA in Marketing. Thames Valley University. Dunno wtf is this ulu Uni.. but its consider cheaper than most others degree courses...

Want to ask why I chose this uni? I didnt.

I really wanted to take a better recognised degree cert.. Who can sponsor me? $5000 more for UOL.. to add to the $11200 I due to pay the school by next April. I still have time to change. If you are friend enough, rich enough to feel that my problem is your problem, then Boss, it's time for charity.

Drained off my wealth, my mind and body to the damn last bit this year. Although I've been plotting out ways to deal with each of them, it is still heavy. So empty, yet so heavy. These few days I'm pretty much isolating myself from the outside, just bear with me, i just need abit of time to relax, and a lot of time to concentrate on my works that's coming up.

I prefer gaming to ease off these stresses. Since there's too many cancellation on sports, since so many of them are having exams.

Another major prob:

I've lost 2.5kg since the start of my diet control programme. Don't come and tell me

"Why are you eating? I thought you are on diet?"

And I don't want to spend too much time reasoning. I know I don't produce slimmed results other than BMT. I worry too, Jio me out to run to swim, I'll be ok, as long as I'm free from work, or fresh on an off day. I do run when I'm having duty in camp, or going slightly early for a slow jog.

With all these to accomplish for this year. It's a really sianz thing that there's no time to be sianz.

Or u can teach me a way to die peacefully at chong_lin26@hotmail.com.

Home Bound

2008-03-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

Rainy seasons - Should be over in february. There's been 2,3 months of delay in these natural weather cycles.

Something is wrong, with Earth. Our existence signifies that 'Something'.

Mas Selamat's escaped.

Increased sailing.

Increased fatigue.

Yet, when all these routines are off, I'm mostly at home. The only day I'm actually out to town, for entertainment, is just a movie @ Suntec City.

Well, everyone had exams, projects, preferred to be around west area.. and not stay out too late... blah blah blah...

But the occasional smses to want to meet up, go out, is still rather helpful to cure my boredomness.

L: Change The World

2008-03-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

Deathnote spin-off: L change the world

Overall rating: ■■■□□
Storyline/Plot: ■■□□□
Humour Factor: ■■■■□
Link to Deathnote: ■□□□□
L's Coolness & Cuteness: ■■■■■

The opening scene of L burning the deathnote is like shouting out "There is no Deathnote involved!" Mika and the deathgod appeared at the start merely for a few seconds before the real storyline officially begins. It is about a global crisis whereby a Virus combined with Flu and Ebola is mutated and a group of ecologists - the villians, threatened to cleanse the world of human race in order to save the Earth using the virus. And L, has to stop that with 23 days to live.

The whole story is all action packed, with a rather limited use of L's gifted abilities. The appearance of several alphabetical agents, L's colleagues, like M, F, K etc, are not listed in the deathnote comic or anime, felt rather insignificant and mocking. To make matters worst, his enemies are rather dim-witted compared to him.

It's rather alright to sit down and watch L's coolness and cuteness as he progress along in the movie. Anyways, it's made for him. But i think it's still a bit crazy to see him jump onto a moving plane.

I thought that the ending is also quite meaningful when he said,

"Watari.. I really wish to stay in this world.. a little longer." with 1 last day to live.

He spent 22 days saving mankind, and can't live to see how's the world gonna change. There are actually alot alot more instances like this - Life itself, is so unfair.

This month weighs a Tonne

2008-02-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Reds are the days I'm out at sea.

Greens are the days I am/will be back and given half day offs.

The orange on 29th is a fire fighting assessment day.
Felt like ironman and soaked in salt water = rusty man loh

It's always the same 12 months, same february like other februaries.
But this february feels so weird. This year Valentine's day, I didn't gave her anything...
Leads me to think for the past 6,7 yrs..

Why am I hiding
Was I too unacceptable
Was I too timid
Was I too over-reactive

Was there too much misunderstanding.
Was I too close a friend

Was I trying too hard

I thought i was giving..giving..giving.. (i wasn't good with words or even asking girls out. I'm a failure for as guy my age) I did just to get her attention. Make her realise something. Probably what I'm feeling. That's it.

Tell me

When will you make "appreciate" be another word for a wasted journey?

What is the correct feeling i should have for all these. years.

:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

如果你眼神能够为我片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音

沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品

偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣

我就样一颗洋葱永远是配角戏

多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

Before CNY '08

2008-02-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

David and Cherie

My cousin, Cherie, got married on 19th Jan'08 with her then-boyfriend, David. They had their wedding held at Ritz, Las Vegas. I was sailing then, and situated at the other half of the globe, haha.. its a pity my family had to give that a skip. Nevertheless, we're looking forward to her malaysia's wedding on 25th May'08 coming 3 months time. :D

David's an A.B.C ( American Born Chinese), that explains his handsomeness. And my cousin, well, is no lesser than a natural beauty la!

She's only 23. I also wanna faster establish my finances and find 1 nice gf already..

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Qinfu's dad passed away on the 5th Feb'08. Heart attack. Can't be there at the wake cos of some CNY Superstitious stuffs, my parents disapproved.

Are there really logics behind these beliefs for CNY?
-守岁
-Can't go to places deemed "Dirty" because that will make you unlucky?

Am i too rational or are people just too timid to even expect some unluckiness for the rest of the year? I received and said 恭喜发财 for the past 20 years and only the ERP, Taxes, Prices all that goes higher.

I m sad i juz can't go there for a little while. To think he might be reminded of this for the coming CNYs is just heartbreaking..

My deepest condolences..

do send yours.

The Room Job

2008-02-03T14:48:00.000+08:00

It was a very hasty decision made last week to paint up my room before CNY. But I just got pretty sick of my blue life for the past few years, probably already reached a decade.

My Job's totally blue. My room's light and milky blue. My car's silverish blue. But my favourite colour's not blue.

On friday itself marks the final decision to change my room's colour. Stamped. I'm Amateur in colour blending and to avoid the risk in too contrasting colours with my huge and lengthy blue cabinets, I skipped ideas and opinions of bright greens, yellows or oranges. Heck.

Well, in the end, there's not much time left and so many choices. So based on a image on a design worked out by my mind. I juz decided to make a go for it. White, Teila Turqoise and Sea Breeze blue.

White for ceiling, blue and turqoise for a design. i decided to skip the details, becos this design wasn't used in the end.

Vince
Haoyong
Zhe Heng
Weixiang
Haoren
Vince and Hy were present on friday. Hy accompanied me to buy the paint equipments and then vince came by and we set up to paint the ceiling. 3 layers were done up before they leave in the evening.

The wall after Haoyong left.
(On Wall: English name "Haoyong" and "Hebe", 2 x Smiley Faces, 2 x Rocker Hair Face, Chinese name "勇")
(Not Shown on Picture: 1 x Love symbol, English name "YJ")

Further on that night, heroic vince came back at 11pm to paint the last, 4th layer of white with me after I moved some of the furnitures out of my room. Then we set up the place for the next day. Its 2am when we finished everything.Then I had to move to vince house to sleep due to the mess in my room..z

(New on wall: English name "Vincent")

Woke up 8am the next day. Ah bak reached, damn on time, at 9 30am for breakfast. Weixiang reached at 12pm plus.

These walls were pretty much done, right about 3pm. Then i realise from the outlines of it, the design gonna come out sucky - like shopping center multistorey carpark like that. So I'm panicking! All of us gets pretty mind-occupied, searching and thinking of possible arts that we could draw or use on the wall. I even dun mind painting the whole room with just turqouise at that point of time. Seems pretty cosy to me - Brighter ceiling and darker walls.

Then dunno bak or wx found this digital flower arts page.

Hy came around 5 while i was struggling with drawing these things. Can't do it still. Then i remembered someone!

Haoren Da Vinci

He was pretty much the best artist friend among us living in this area. So quickly contact him and I'm very fortunate to get him at the point before he's going out to meet his friends. I asked him for the materials he might need and quickly got him into work.

"15 minutes can finish la"

But the complexity of the drawings actually had him cancelled his meeting with his friends and stayed the near 2 hours to finish. Haha. But I'm very glad he stayed.

As Haoren Da Vinci extracted and copy the drawings from the flower pages, the rest did some touch-ups on some places while i prepare some drinks and snacks for them. Its past dinner time.

It's a Digital - Analog Transformation!

Done. But like......still can work on it

Over You

2008-01-23T01:33:00.000+08:00

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running A long long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you More than you, more than you know

I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better

Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through

I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up So did my eyes
so I could see

That you never were the best for me

我想要说

2008-01-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

Bonus is coming - for all of us.

Some may get more, some may get less - and i belong to the latter. Probably Chinese New Year is the period where poverty is reduced a little for people like me.

Maybe with the coming angbaos, I could just chip in more money to get myself a nice Keyboard to play with.

Or I could just simply pray some rich but careless man would transfer money to the wrong bank account and ended up in mine.

And nice to see my blog visiting number hit 1000 after 1 forsaken year.

I find that the number of people I used to call up, sms or even go out with - have decimated quite a lot. Nevertheless, I'm still well to do.

For I've learnt not to be wavered by those drifting away, but to appreciate who's remaining.

And this I do - very obvious.

My heart's sunrise

2008-01-05T11:09:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I'm feeling thankful. Suddenly I felt something pulled me up - maybe the warmth and advises of the people around me, maybe it's myself realising.

Maybe I should not get upset about who's missing, but be glad about who's there.
Maybe I should think that love is not about holding on, but moving on.
Maybe I should not find doing certain things pointless, but find a point to do those things.

I'm just about to make my new year wishes come true.

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其实有没有人像我这样想过

察觉过

也感觉过

⌐已经孤单了这么久

还在习惯

一个人的生活¬

...

结冰

2008-01-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

白色如影随行
离不了遍地雪片的风景
你走开得平静
他一身带着你要的肯定

月色映蓝屋顶
寂寞似囱出的烟般透明
追着你的身影
我心碎的声音都来不及听

在日月交叉那瞬间
湖面光染黄切了一条线
夕阳天天反复一遍
可今失去你不难是永远

雪花落下绿退入眠
在我的身边是否不安全
你的微笑如此夏天
而我结成冰雪葬在庭院

词: 崇林

Wish Up 2008

2008-01-01T15:24:00.000+08:00

I wish

I'd be happier

I wish

I could do more right things;

think more right thoughts;

Less forgetting, more forgiving.

I wish I'd know appreciation.

And I wish that

all these wishes will not repeat next year.

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The SAF Law Enforcers

2007-12-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

Got involved in a Military Police raid on Saturday night down at boat quay.

The sad thing is I'm not raiding with them, but got raided instead. I was dumbfounded right on the spot the moment one of them spoke.

Dressed in normal civilian clothes, they were pretty well-camouflaged except the lanyard around their necks. The most shocking thing is, the people outside the pub, among where my colleagues and me stood, were all their people - sitted at different locations.

I was consoling my friend, who is going RPQ (Remand Prison Quarters) to stay - As of the time I'm typing now, its today. Apparently they were pretty upset over my friend smoking and spitting on the pathway and checked on us. Their tone was alright actually, claiming it was just a usual routine check. But got nasty once my friend asked them what wrong had we done.

I was rather surprised they get agitated so easily. Its like... trying to provoke us to do something criminal. It's just what I think though.

I'll better not say too much....

It was a spoilt night.

Rain

2007-12-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

Finally this morning, it seems the rain has finally stopped. My terrible flu also made a retreat, leaving me behind with a blocked nose. zz

Yet, I think I'm going out too much these few days. I've spent 草草 $500 the past 5 days. And this is not good.

The 2 main culprits for my spenditure.
Petrol - $80.00
A HDD that supports TV Playback - $299

And travelling too often, by end of today i think need to top up my petrol again..
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Good Luck Chuck (R21)

Genre: Romance/Comedy
Romance rating: ●●○○○
Comedy rating: ●●●●○
Overall rating: ●●●○○

Pretty typical R/C type movie. Except that there are pretty much nudity scenes. And Jessica Alba - Woah!

Pretty irritated at a point when that guy went "crazy". Other than that, pretty smooth.
It's all about pretty, really.

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Had a short chat with Risie last monday over - Calculativeness. The thoughts of being taken for granted really irritates me.

I think I helped people to do stuffs too much or something onboard? It feels like I'm doing so often its become a routine. And people thought I'm responsible for it. Especially when something cropped up. And to pinpoint who is actually supposed to be doing that - the thought of being marked as Sabo - just stopped me from defending myself by saying it's not my job. So i apologise and touch up. Usually.

I'm always grumpy and I still do when people request. What's wrong?

But now I felt lost.

When I was being stabbed straight in on my chest. Being grumpy about unfairness and people not contributing while others are enjoying. So I was wrong to believe in effort?

Let me be the bad guy, but don't think that not being calculative makes you the good guy. It takes me years of doing to realise the importance to calculate. And not once. You don't have that pain from - Experience.

Talking about give and take.

What do i get

Currently

2007-11-28T16:31:00.000+08:00

At this particular time
you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

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That thing about characteristic tests - they want you to think what they think that you are. It easily mislead people to believe in it. Even although to certain point, some parts can be quite true.

But most are just convincing, and convincing doesn't means its true. There's always a limit to programming those results that were generated with references to the selections you've picked. Given a 10 question quiz to test your personalities on something something, even with 10,000 possible answers and results to your personalities, so what? How many billions of people are there? All of them within these 10,000 results means a hell lot of similar people around! aint it boring..........

But yet again, thats only my perception.

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Hell is coming these 2 weeks, and i'm receiving it. Damn routines. Heard that the coming monday to wednesday will be CBT. There's kungfu, BCCT, shouting, running around a near 15-storey high commercial vessel, just for training. With bullet proof vest and all combat gears.

And oh, some says its beyond hell.

!@#$%^&

-.-

2007-11-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

I HATE
Drivers that honked at my back, when the light turns green barely 2 seconds ago.

Drivers that drove up to my side, after honking because his front lane was intercepted. Look freaking ridiculously at my direction and what? Hope to remember my face for the rest of his life because of this? Or probably complain to LTA the lane he BOUGHT was being taken.

MOST Taxi Drivers - They thought that they are the "Lao Jiao" drivers. "Pa Jiao" n "L** Jiao" maybe more suitable. Some cockster only can make way for themselves, cannot give way. Some know their destinations, but dunno their directions. Siannnnn

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Recently there's a crisis - I've ran out of places to go,

movies, ktv, LAN, dinner, supper, Mahjong, Chill Out, anything else can do one...?????????

And oh! Looking forward to Wed KTV! its been too long comin.

Doncha' know?

蒲公英的约定

2007-11-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音
多少年后也还是很好听

将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定那样清晰
打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

在走廊上罚站打手心
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定那样真心
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情

还是错过的爱情

Just wake up

2007-11-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

I just woke up

Exactly 7 minutes ago

I brushed my teeth, took a pee

Switched on my computer.

Sat down and stared into the loading screen. I saw my reflection.

I turned and checked my handphone for any new messages. None. 9.40a.m it shows.

"Great, 5 new mails." I thought.

1 junk mail, 3 from facebook and 1 friendster comment.

And after that here I am, typing this.

I just wake up

and I supposed I am

lonely.<>

Stardust

2007-10-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

STARDUST
Genre: Fantasy/Sci-Fi

Comedy ●●●●○
Action ●●●●○
Romance ●●●●●
Adventure ●●●●○
Storyline ●●●●●

My Rating ●●●●●

Probably the best movie I've seen so far this year. But I thought again, this is definitely the best movie this year! Nothing beats the feeling of walking out of the theatre feeling "every cents is worthy" and the tingling sensation of happiness that you'll feel - You may even walk out of the cinema smiling.

This is a MUST-SEE movie, unless you intend on missing out the best screen of 2007.

The Last Breath

2007-10-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

You've seen this.... eerie piece of wallpaper outside cinemas...

but....

Horror: ●●●○○
Suspense: ●●○○○
Storyline: ●○○○○
My Overall Rating: ●●○○○

Never judge a book by its cover.

i say, never judge a movie by its trailer!
Gosh, recent movies are produced half-heartedly or what? Only the first half of the movies are nice. 兄弟，The Last Breath, both sucked, and even the most anticipated Resident Evil: Extinction turns into a X-Men and Clone Wars show!

And my mahjong career isn't going well these 2 days. Lose a total of $37.00 clean. This INSPIRED me to share the following:

Being rich these years - is a NEED.

Who Says what "I can live happily even without much money." please feel free to write me a cheque if you think this way. Come on, wake up, if you are in singapore and you are a singaporean, stop trying to BELIEVE life is meant to be a fairy tale.

And for those who are supporting yourself - like me, please, lets think of a way to earn extra money, together!

When all that I left

2007-10-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

is the remaining 20 hours of my life.

Maybe I'll regret not living enough out of it.

Maybe I'll cherish even more things.

Love my family more,

Maybe I will laugh more.

Smile more.

Work harder and be more intelligent in coming to decisions.

Accept more things a little

Know more people

Love more widely

Give more generosity Travel to countries I've wanna go.

Stop being a dick Try more stuffs.

Less criticism to people

Spend more time with friends.

And just to look at her for the last time.

And all that is what I thought I would do when I'm left with 20 hours to live. Surely there's a difference between knowing how long you'd live and not knowing it.

Might just go to sleep and never feel anything ever again. And missed all the things cherishable, lovable and the construction process of ones' dreams and ambitions. All that will be taken along are just bags of regret. Who would want these weighing down on his/her grave?

I'm in super deep shit mood last few weeks, I may just be too tired. Maybe i'm just too alone. But with this life-less and low prospective job, I'm just worried about every tomorrow.

I may have more moody times again, but I hope I can remind myself through those times. I want to be my old self.

"I'm nobody, that's what I am. It's the simplest thing I can remember. So I remember it."

- Al Ray

Limit

2007-09-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

I used to think - that I could do everything

That I could give everything. That normally unseen unfelt sacrifices that we sometimes do to make people's day. That warmth in our heart comforted with the vision of others' smiles - priceless

As time goes back, setbacks depreciated this value. I failed too - trying to give everything for love and I thought I was wrong about it all. One could not, or maybe just I could not, go forward for too long giving everything beyong one's capacity.

For those lessons learnt and sleeping with lifted pillows, i try to find meanings to my doings. Maybe its not necessary. Maybe i could just give what people wants. Maybe I used to do too much just because I'm afraid of losing. Something? or Somebody? But I end up just losing myself more.

Changes is part of growing up. I've seen people changed, gradually and suddenly. I've seen myself from the things I've done. I'm no longer too enthusiastic about things. I no longer see the need to spend my energy just because others need it. It's stupid to try and score a goal when I know i wouldn't be awarded a point.

I was stupid. But why still am?

It's not that I'm trying to ask for something in return. It'll never be the reason.

It's just all because of unfairness. And I just feel people don't deserved it when it could be avoided.

Take it as I'm just narrow.

Not Happy

2007-09-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

Just moments ago, I took out my calendar and imagined myself in my mind - highlighting the possible dates I need to blank out for sailing. Luckily it doesn't take long to arrive at the december page.

I felt relaxed upon reaching that page, browsing through the columns where we placed our pre-accepted chalet dates. It's 28th,29th & 30th Dec. Fri,Sat and Sun. The thought of putting aside work and a few days break from this forsaken work n sailing life, so inviting.

I've not been happy recently, and there on the top left of this december page was a proverb:

"Happiness - happiness is an attitude of mind, born of the simple determination to be happy under all outward circumstances."

What's Happiness - its an attitude it says. Determined to think positively no matter what happens.

Such an attitude I find it hard to achieve - like forcing me to write with my right hand when i'm left handed.

Being forced to accept delegated jobs and doing work way out of my responsibilities, i was neither credited for it nor being paid extra. The crappiest thing ever was some taking leave and MC all the time and got me as replacement and this department's most senior idiot doesnt know how to discipline his men.

For the past 7 weeks I'm only home 1 single day from morning to night each week.. i try not to miss out any possible outings despite

the weight of my eyebags
my moods are bad
my face is black
I'm still moving way off my comfort zone for people around me that makes me wanna put in effort to help, to make things interesting, special..

it turns out I'm utterly... perhaps sensitive again, maybe paranoid, or out of my mind.. demanding.. unreasonable.. crap.. lame.. whatever related english u know, name it

.
.
.
someone, anyone, can just teach me to pretend happy?

Inconvenient Truth

2007-09-07T19:45:00.000+08:00

A Global Warning. A foresight of the kind of world we'll be living in the next few decades.

I've not seen this documentary film when it was first launched last year or so. After watching it the last sailing, there's this helplessness feeling that sort of engulfed me.

I've been back from a Hong Kong trip and knowing that the winter period there has been reduced 3 weeks and more, compared to 11 years ago, the funny short-lived rainfalls that last for minutes, the lightning outbreak recently in the news.. and now to find out the change worldwide..

the snowflaked mountains that changed into normal mountains..;

the giant freshwater lake 1/3 the size of North America that lies above Canada that will turn europe back into Ice age if it reaches the Atlantic Sea..;

Polar bears having to swim more than 60 miles in the Artic Sea to find a land of ice to rest..;

The disturbing, yet interesting statistics and graphs of weather patterns, global temperatures, pollutions, populations..;

The likeliness of sea-water levels to rise 40 feet in the coming years.. causing the lost of cities..etc;

Though there's a slight sidetrack that goes back to Al Gore's childhood and political past..
maybe you can't save the planet - but i think you should start to save yourself, so,

I recommend 2 words,

Watch it.

无名诗

2007-08-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

别对失去的拉扯不止
不管是固执还是坚持
太执著就会像是一只
拍不掉的蚊子

所有的故事都会终止
遗忘是知识还是理智
放不下是对自己自私
重要的是懂得如何再开始

我用整夜熟悉这几段句子
重复温习伤心怎么控制
等待像永远又好像暂时
可恨与幸福的约定都在延迟

满脸上的憔悴面对着镜子
心碎的过去对自己表示
回忆是恶魔还是个天使
回味后尝到甜蜜的

却是不诚实

词：崇林

Bunch of Tests

2007-08-20T13:37:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is 120

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Rainie's Hottest Advertisement!

2007-08-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

And just when you think Rainie is cute... only?

明天过后

2007-08-16T23:21:00.000+08:00

你问我明天过后会如何

世界若毁灭我们又怎么了

我笑了电影情节太唬人

只有单纯的你相信着

你问我明天过后会如何

冰天雪地里我们怎么活着

我笑了笑你太傻又太笨

但自己心中却决定了

我相信抱着你的手就温暖了

睡着或醒着我的手为你加温

就算明天崩塌又如何我们手握着

外面天再冷

全都由我负责

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也许我有时太傻太呆又太闷

甜言蜜语不是我的风格

但请相信真心从来不会少一分

多嘴的人

恋爱从不会认真

--------------

这世界再冷

你的心不会冷

删除的名单

2007-08-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

有时候..

突然间不知道曾在MsN接受的人到底是谁..

有些留着的.. ..却又莫名舍不得删除掉..

有些想念的.. ..却不再联络了的 ..下落不明的友谊 ..我很明白的这只是在累计名单上的数分..

留着看你们上线，关电脑的时间吗..？

对于有些人我可能只是你们暂时可以陪伴的伙伴吧..
因为.. 我很清楚我对有些人也只能走到那一点.. 我和你们都有自己习惯了的结党虽然不再联络了..

可能我们曾经合作过.. 出门过.. 熬过.. 苦过.. 乐过..
..我真的很对不起..

..至少我有认真想过删除的理由吧..

而理由真的很简单....

..我忘了你是谁...

These days...

2007-08-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

Gotta love this..

Got my basic theory almost a month after I reached my 18th birthday till now. It's been 4 years too long.

I finally passed my TP on the 4th August this year. Coincidentally, my ship happened to be number 84. But still glad I could get it on a 2nd attempt, and I thought I would flunk it - Because i took my driving lessons just 1,2 days before the 2nd test only. And furthermore i realised i lost my PDL on the morning of the 1st lesson itself!

Sailing on National day - Wasn't a treat either. Off marina south stood our lonesome ship, moving east - west and west - east, and when the fireworks goes off, all we could see were the distant flashes emitted from the explosions, how sad. Down in the galley, my communications chief cooked us a sumptuous dinner for that special day; Black pepper crabs, drunken prawns in Martell, chilli crabs, LaLa, some kind of steamed fish he got from fishing, days before the sailing. The meal worth $800. Everything's nice.

Just bad that I can't take spicy food.
Just bad that I don't like prawns and crabs.

After 12 midnight we're back to our usual patrol off South China Sea. And the sea-state was so bad, it felt like earthquake 6.0 on the Richter scale. Many vomited, many can't get to sleep and some unsecured items went falling all over the place.

To add matters worst, there's too many defects and repairs to be done. Machineries all having undesirable conditions - they say because lunar 7th month is coming, and this always happen days before the month.

HK pictures from my cam

2007-08-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

The hong kong trip pictures I've taken with my camera, are ready for upload. Click here.

Hong Kong in 6 days

2007-07-30T19:39:00.000+08:00

I thought this trip ended too quickly. I thought I didn't have enough time to appreciate the things that were there. and I thought I can master my cantonese speaking.

Their buildings' architectures, the shopping streets and the city is like a big excavating site - There are still too many things left un-dugged. I thought I could adapt well to the scorching hot weather there, but i realised i was wrong. It's so ****ing hot.

Some places I didn't take picture with my camera.. but well, shall just show some details of the 5 days:

Day 1: Arrival - 11am

Bee was there with the driver when we arrived. That day I was not aware that she was taking the MTR Train while we sit comfortably in Vans when we make our way to the hotel. There are 10 of us, 5 for each van, thinking back, I realised I was so fuked up!

The van interior... I see more toys than scenery.

Our first meal at a nearby restaurant after unpacking. Looks all brown but it's nice! got ice milk tea is the best!

After that.. we went to Yau Ma Tei station to get the Octopus card - Identical to our Easilink Card.

They had this fantastic machine that could check your card value as well as the previous 10 destinations you've been to, and how much was paid.

Uptown mall - IFC
The words are made of bread. I find it nice. But inside price not nice.
1 single packet korean instant noodle SGD 8.00

After that, we visited The Peak. A tram bring us up the mountain for a breathtaking sight of the city from above. My camera empty battery at this time. No pix.

Night shopping at the 尖沙咀.. or somewhere else.. forget

Bed: 0100am++

Day 2: 深圳-Never again

Wake: 0800a.m

Journey was an hour plus by train.
I hate it there, I dunno why.
Maybe it's the hot weather, maybe it's the people, maybe it's just because of..

1.the vast amount of Fake currencies
2.the number of robbers
3.the freaking prices the vendors offered - the most annoying thing.

Well, u know we can have a lot of reason to love something, but sometimes we dun need any - to hate.

This very tiny coin-like ticket for their train is not used for inserting - It's used for tapping - like our Easilink card!

Well, the only thing I'm amused there.

The 东门 shopping district at 深圳. Jeff, apparently cant stand the air there, he went mad.

He say he's a scout from GE.

there's never another scarier ghost. HA HA

That night..while i was bathing...

He actually did this.

After i bathed.... he ask me to take a pix of him...

...like this. And emphasized he want to look shagged in the pix! Freak..

Bed: 0100a.m++

Day 3: Ocean Park

Wake: 0800a.m

Bee meet us at 0900a.m after breakfast and the Vans were waiting. This was when I realise Bee was taking MTR.. when I always thought she's driving..

Bee: I tried to find u back when u walk off, but you walk very fast...

Ocean Park. Its crowded with people. And the people are crowded with eager.
It feels like years of lost childhood and suddenly coming back. And I feel so old among the people here.

1/4 of the queue for cable car to the other side of the theme park.

Qian, Height-phobia minz and Beejudie on cable car cabin.

The hanging journey..

This is cute! They pop out from the sand with only their head and look so curiously at the visitors.

I think this is some sort of sea horse that was cross-breed with certain plankston..

蔚蓝的珊瑚海..错过瞬间苍白~

There's a really nice pix of the fish species - Angel of the Sea
This name is not a description of the fish, it is it's name. And it's not Angelfish. My pix sux, the nicest one is in Jeff's cam.

Free Fall from around 20 storey high - The Abyssl.

After the roller coaster and Abyssl ride, we went for the dolphin and sealion show.

Mine train was the last. Its the best ride compared to the others.

The general theme for the park is surprisingly - pandas.
But the park name is Ocean Park. What does it got to do with bamboo shoots and bears?

Woooo......!

I was glad finally, Bee was able to take the van with us back. My 良心 finally heals a little.
Took an hour break at the hotel before dinner.

Jeff got this indian-fingers claypot rice for food. Mine tastes nice, but this beef hotdog has a rather strong smell.. It's not for my appetite la..

Left: Fried oyster, Center: Fried Prawns, Right: Dunno wad vege
The prawns taste great! The flour that is used to fry it.. i nv taste b4..its more fragrant than our 麦片prawns..think it's one of Bee's favorite dish there.

After dinner we went shopping around temple street a.k.a 男人街. Right? Sex toys everywhere. Zz.
Purchased quite a few souvenirs and craps there. I dunno how to bargain for cheaper price.. I only either buy, or don't buy if I don't like. I think that's just me ba.

Me and bee left the rest to shop.. we're tired. It's around 11pm when we took a cab back to our hotel, where she take a bus back home.

Bed: 1230a.m

4th Day: Lantau Island

The administrators' bridge - or so it's name.

Wake: 0830a.m

We took the vans to 东涌 to meet up with wayne. Today's main activity was to visit the 大佛 atop the mountains.

The 10 storey flight of steps to nirvana.

大佛. His almighty palms used to seal 孙悟空 under the 五指山.
I found a manuscript... which will be revealed later.

Jeff,Chor, Height-phobia minz, qian and sherlyn(spelling correct?)

Skillz. haha

Anyways, the visit was short, had a nice dosage of the fresh air on the mountains. Back to city.

For safety, they had this law. The culprit for this breach will be - distraction. They should also prohibit hand signs too - in case people point middle fingers!

After this, we took MTR back to our hotel area - to shop, then i seemed to be always the first to head back to hotel. I hope nobody blame me for my spoilsportness. I mentally unfit for shopping long hours, seriously.

After long hours of reading this entry, now for a short break...

About the manuscript i retrieved.. its this.

少林武功 - 神功护身法！

Supposed it's a rare drop.. there's pictures and words beneath this legendary manuscript. Wayne was keen to figure it out.

He said he's reading the 铜皮铁骨护身法.

on the move.

Finally, he levitated!

*********End**********

Wayne went home at around 11pm that night. He's taking an hour bus ride back to 新界. I'm really grateful for their company and being our host bringing us around hong kong. Without them, i think it's rather difficult for us to find our way to sight-see. And under such hot weather, things may get worst.

Bed: 0100a.m.

Day 5: 星光大道

Wake: 0900a.m

Decided to take a longer sleep today. Though its the last day. Today is also the day where we tried to hurry our final shopping spree. The tarts we wanna get, the gifts, and all that.

Wayne met us at SOGO mall. Around 5 30pm, we were late becos we lost our way, the tour group split up. Things got in a little mess, and Wayne waited for an hour for us there. We had a quick dinner at the basement and then proceed to the 星光大道.

We were early, but there are already lots of people.

The city lights up as the sky darkens..
At this point..Bee had an urgent business visit to china..and unable to join us.

We're bored waiting.

The wind onto qian, and the city's beauty reflected by the sea..
And here goes..

Well-loved Fire-works. It really suits the phrase.. "美丽总是短暂的.."

Minz Mum, Wayne and Minz Aunt. Like taking pix with a basketball national team player. gosh.

Name: Wayne Wong
Height: >180cm
Weight: 不详
Status: Single
Current affairs: Lion Dance, study, basketball, finding job
剩下的都不详. 不好意思.

Wayne and Sherlyn.
Type until now den i realise my cam dun have Adeline sia..

The Lak-Tao-Moh band soothes the night away..

We split up while going shopping along the way. I was with Minz, Qianz, Jeff and Wayne. The rest splits up into 2 more groups.. after that, we merged. And split up again.

I end up shopping with Wayne, Minz and Qianz. We then reached hotel first with KFC for dinner.
The rest returned around 11pm. And jeff bought 臭豆腐 to "share" with me.

Wheel and I ate and swallowed up. Its smelly but its actually just taste a little sour when chewed. Wayne says we forgot the sauce that goes with the doufu, but anyways, its alright for me and wheel.

On the other hand, Jeff vomit out half the piece on his first attempt to eat. I was laughing so hard I cannot hold my camera and shoot his pathetic face sia...lol

His 2nd attempt, holding the KFC burger pack..and the doufu in his mouth.
He added an amount of tomato sauce that is more than the size of the doufu sia..but,

He still vomit out everything, and i almost died laughing.

Day 6: Departure

There's a little bit of panic when the driver can't be contacted, and my prepaid card used-up. I threw away before I checked out.

Bee: Thanks for worrying for us.. and your help to book the vans. but it wasn't your fault also..别太自责啊. :) I still cannot thank you enough for your reception and playing host to me and my frens whom you don't know.

Or-Lu-Lu, nainai, beejudie, RoeteM, NPC. - Helbreath

We are sure to come back again. I promise.

Specialest Morning

2007-07-23T01:40:00.000+08:00

Special thanks to June and Xuan. Amazingly you both actually came over to my house even before I woke up.

Well, my ever first experience cutting a birthday cake, having 2 pretty ladies singing birthday song for me when..

I haven't brush my teeth
My mind is still in a daze
My hair is messy
I haven't take a shower

And I have to take pictures that requires weird faces.

Though still failed to make me cry, but! Your effort and sincerity is really warm enough already, to the point of scalding my fragile heart. haha

不想许错愿

还没吃早点
我就一身疲倦
在烛光面前
心里不停埋怨

只是想到当没有人在身边
只有多余的时间
寻找话题对自己自语自言
有时真的很可怜

你们的出现
是一幅珍贵的画面
不想许错愿
我的梦想能放一边
不想许错愿
改写愿望删除重编

祈祷多一点
你们的快乐能永远
一天过一天
日子会像糖浆般甜

My Second C

2007-07-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

1.~~Career~~
2.~~Credit Card~~
3.Cash
4.Car
5.Condo

Actually I am not going after the 5Cs.

I only intend to use my Credit Card for emergencies and not for leisure spending, so, it's not a hazardeous item to own. My own opinion. Well, take in account the benefits the card offers, its actually nice. :)

A Series Of Electrical Failure

2007-07-12T21:46:00.000+08:00

Went Batam for an Operation for the past 2 days. Had a rather enjoyable time there being a millionaire. Confirmed. If you know what I mean.

The rate there is S$1 to 5880 ringgits.

Smokers: the cigarettes there cost 10,000 ringgits per pack approximately. *BLinK*

All i have was S$50 when i was there. I was thinking since going to HK..might as well dun spend too much... oh well.

There's been a bit of Incredible + unexplained events going on these few days. It is the coincidences of electrical failures that happened in a chain-reaction matter that gives me the creeps.

Tuesday - I'm doing sentry duty from 2000 to 0230. The power generator gave way, electrical supply tripped, we call it. Blackout.

Wednesday - We were given free gangway - shore leave from 1130 for the whole day. We had a free hotel room for bathing, for resting and to report back to ship before 2359. We went shopping for cigarettes.. food.. blah blah.. some buy things for gf..family..wife..whatever.

There's this hypermart, something like GIANT. And it went blackout 3 times when we're there...

Thursday - Time was 0130 in the weeeeeee hours of the morning. Ship encountered another blackout. And 2 failed attempts were made before we finally restore the power back. I was freaking concussed due to last night's beer session with the crew. I didn't get up. Actually, I don't want to get up :D

My chief had requested me to "respect" the officers, by drinking solo with them one by one. And we succeeded in making them vomit. All of them. actually, its fun. haha. Shit I could actually down 9 carlsberg bottles and still walk straight. And that makes me on the road to being a beer ghost. But i dun like beer.

We're back in Singapore base around 12pm. There's the provost conducting a sweep onboard for illegal stuffs while we're held up on the wharf to wait. I decided to take a rest in another ship, for the air-con.

The ship also power failure. Supply tripped. And this time, we juniors who went down to try and restart back, couldn't get it fixed. So, we leave it for the duty personnels to settle..not our problem actually...

I went home at around 4pm..put down my stuffs..and went out for dinner at around 7pm plus.. i went home at around 9pm..

My sis says the power tripped. And return back to normal by itself. The lights were actually still flickering when I've reached home. And after awhile, everything's back to normal.

All these gives me the creeps when I think back.

power supply tripped 9 times in these 3 days... and it tripped back to my home.

What if.......

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2007-07-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

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All u need is to have enough time and patience.

Join me through here -> CashPro

BBA

2007-07-08T23:57:00.000+08:00

No, its not "Bye Bye Assholes"

Its Bsc in Business Administration.
That's the course I'm registered for, coming September will mark the starting point of my First Class Honour Journey.I will say that i'll be having an extreme tedious schedules ahead, i believe anyone who is working, and having to attend lessons after work, will agree.

Well,

At least I don't have time to feel as lonely as a solo kia, anymore.

Kaleidoscope of Love

Love don't just..

..make us do things we've never done before

..make us go to places we've never been before

..made us know ourselves more

..it..

..make us dare to do things we've never done before..

..make us interested to go to places we've never been before

..simply also made others know you more..

People say, love is blind.

Suddenly it came to me, it's in fact a kind of colour-blind.

Though for decades people portrait it, in pure red - mostly. The purity of love.

Some are just stucked in this kaleidoscopic world of love with gorgeous colours, seeing only the generosity of its display.

One fine day, all the beautiful colours will slowly began to fade, like how metals begin to rust, how paper turns yellow. It'll reduce to its original form, its purest form, or..

..nothing at all.

-For my friend's friend who ~~needs~~ must know who you are, again.

aGainst all Odds

2007-07-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

I hate money issues, I hate it most when it's about my own money I have to set aside and watch it used up in an instance and having to plan the journey it'll undergo.

I've talked about getting a degree when I quit my current job. The chances I thought to have one while working - it didn't cross my mind, or maybe it crossed half-way only. My Chief of Engineer Naval Specialist (Cens) also my direct chief, found an opportunity for me to further my studies while in Navy.

My immediate thought was "why not."

He brought me to this Brookes Of Business School. I've seen a couple of choices I'm interested in, there:

UOL Bsc in Business Administration
EU Bsc in Business Management
Auston Bsc in Engineering Business Management

These courses are attractive enough for me. Better still, the fees are cheap as well. UOL course is $19000, with no hidden charges. The rest are $18000 and below.

The lessons are conducted 3 times a week. Attendance is not compulsory though. Lesson notes will be emailed or mailed back to my house for self revision and self study, the notes are straightforward. The lessons are straightforward as well, straight to the point, instead of going page by page. Any doubts on the skipped lessons can be clarified any weekdays anytime through phone or back at the school.

It's selling point is it's flexibility..its cost.. and money back guarantee if the school goes bankrupt or something happened.
Though many people say "no" to self-studying. But I have no choice. I have to work. My parents ' cannot afford my education anymore. And i hope to have a degree by the time i quit navy, so i can get a job easier.

I'm rich? think again.

For those who are interested, below are the links to the courses available to this school:

European University
Brookes Of Business School

i'll try to work harder this time round.

The End of all Beginnings

2007-06-30T12:40:00.000+08:00

He will not get to see the weather tomorrow. He's given up the hope... to wish... to wait for that someone, somewhere later...

that'll come to let him believe again.

People do make wrong choices, all the time. Somehow, some do regret. Some tried to amend. Some take it as an experience.Nevertheless, most people who made wrong choices, found a path eventually.

Choosing to escape, to be relieved from the living world, is the final wrong choice one can make...

He can't see the tears from the ones who cared for him.
He can't see the tears from the ones he cared for.
He may have see that peace he finally wanted..

But he'll never see the pain which was left behind, telling him that the choice he made

is wrong.

I dunno the whole story behind.. but.. may u have your final peace. rest well, eternally..