..A World of Nonsense..

Reds are the days I'm out at sea.

Greens are the days I am/will be back and given half day offs.

The orange on 29th is a fire fighting assessment day.
Felt like ironman and soaked in salt water = rusty man loh

It's always the same 12 months, same february like other februaries.
But this february feels so weird. This year Valentine's day, I didn't gave her anything...
Leads me to think for the past 6,7 yrs..

Why am I hiding
Was I too unacceptable
Was I too timid
Was I too over-reactive

Was there too much misunderstanding.
Was I too close a friend

Was I trying too hard

I thought i was giving..giving..giving.. (i wasn't good with words or even asking girls out. I'm a failure for as guy my age) I did just to get her attention. Make her realise something. Probably what I'm feeling. That's it.

Tell me

When will you make "appreciate" be another word for a wasted journey?

What is the correct feeling i should have for all these. years.

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如果你眼神能够为我片刻的降临
如果你能听到心碎的声音

沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品

偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣

我就样一颗洋葱永远是配角戏

多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情

Chongz stepped on your garbage at 10:19 PM