..A World of Nonsense..

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I used to think - that I could do everything

That I could give everything. That normally unseen unfelt sacrifices that we sometimes do to make people's day. That warmth in our heart comforted with the vision of others' smiles - priceless

As time goes back, setbacks depreciated this value. I failed too - trying to give everything for love and I thought I was wrong about it all. One could not, or maybe just I could not, go forward for too long giving everything beyong one's capacity.

For those lessons learnt and sleeping with lifted pillows, i try to find meanings to my doings. Maybe its not necessary. Maybe i could just give what people wants. Maybe I used to do too much just because I'm afraid of losing. Something? or Somebody? But I end up just losing myself more.

Changes is part of growing up. I've seen people changed, gradually and suddenly. I've seen myself from the things I've done. I'm no longer too enthusiastic about things. I no longer see the need to spend my energy just because others need it. It's stupid to try and score a goal when I know i wouldn't be awarded a point.

I was stupid. But why still am?

It's not that I'm trying to ask for something in return. It'll never be the reason.

It's just all because of unfairness. And I just feel people don't deserved it when it could be avoided.

Take it as I'm just narrow.

Chongz stepped on your garbage at 12:18 AM